It was dark and getting cold. Jack knew he had to go inside soon. He told himself he was going to, but couldn't bring himself to it. The darkness engulfed him and one by one, stars appeared. Jack had always loved space. That's why he and Mark bonded so much. They both had a certain fondness of space, more so than the other kids. Jack hadn't really looked at the stars since Mark had died. Realizing all of this just made him cry even harder. He hadn't thought about Mark this way in what felt like forever. Now the two people he cared about the most were gone. Out of his life forever . Well, at least one of them was. He still had a chance at getting Jaycee back. Mark was gone. There was no way to bring him back. Jaycee had been his distraction. She made him feel happy. She was his drug.
It was almost midnight when he finally mustered up the courage to go inside. He walked in and immediately felt different. Half of his apartment had been taken, swept out from underneath him. He felt powerless, weak even. His life was falling apart more than ever. He collapsed onto his couch and fell asleep.
He awoke and felt for a moment that everything was alright. But he quickly returned to reality. He felt worse than he ever thought he could. He felt normal? He was confused. He felt as if he could just walk to the kitchen and make some coffee. He felt uneasy. He decided to shake it off. He went to the bathroom and washed off his face. He walked across the hall to put on his hoodie. He felt like he was floating. He put on his jacket and laid on the bed. He fell asleep again and didn't wake up until 2am. He was woken up by a text.
Felix- Hey Jack. I heard about the break up. Are you okay?
Jack- Not really
F- Wanna talk about it?
J- Not really
-Felix's POV-
I'm worried about Jack. He's not being himself. At least he hasn't tried to throw himself off the roof like he did after Mark. The fact that he wanted to jump after him, to try and save him, it killed me. I knew that Mark was gone, and Jack wanted to be too. But I couldn't loose both of them. I hope he will be okay. He will though. Right?
-End Felix's POV-
-Jaycee's POV-
I left Jack for a reason. A good one too. At least, I hope it was. Loosing Mark was hard enough on him, and he hasn't done a meet up or been to any conventions since. Everyone is going to want to talk to him about it. With me cutting myself now, I wasn't going to be a good influence on him. I don't want him hurting himself because of me, because of anyone.When I feel I'm ready, when I feel he's ready. I'll see him again. Right?
-End Jaycee's POV-
-Jack's POV-
I don't get it. I love her, I really do. I don't know why she'd leave me. I don't know why I feel this way. Maybe because it's the fact that I'm...used to it? I know that a lot of people break up. Hell, I've been through it before, but this feels different. It feels almost like I've done this before. I don't know. She was my best friend.
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Try. {Jacksepticeye}
Hayran Kurgu*Warning, read with caution if you are triggered by, suicide, death, depression, ect.* After the death of his closest friend Mark, Jack is now trying to recover. But it's not as easy as one might think.
