Secret Love Story #wattys2017 (COMPLETED)

Confusion

Kajol-2000

"Are you okay? You seem a little off today," Ajay asks touching my upper arm with his hand. I force a smile and remove my arm from his touch trying to make it obvious I don't want Ajay Devgn anywhere near me.
"I'm fine," I mutter shuffling down the sofa in the green room away from him. We have just finished filming an interview for our new film and now we are waiting for our separate cars to pick us up. The only thing is... I blame Ajay for the splitting of my family. If he had never come along then maybe I wouldn't have been disowned. Maybe I would have just told my parents about Shah Rukh and I a long time ago. Maybe we wouldn't be in a secret relationship still? But then again you can't live on what if's and maybes all your life so I've just got to suck it up.
"Kajol please, just talk to me I'm here for you," Ajay sighs acting like he's my protector. I turn to face his full of shock.
"I'm sorry what?" I ask speechlessly. What the hell does Ajay think he's doing ordering me to talk to him? He is the whole reason I'm in this mess with my parents!
"You can't keep denying it," Ajay stammers, "we have chemistry whenever we are together. We are made for one another and you know that deep down. You just don't want to feel pushed by your parents into a relationship with me and I get that but don't ruin your chance to be with me because you want to stick two fingers up at your parents." I just stare at him. Is he delusional? Ajay and I share no form of chemistry whether we are onscreen or off screen. Yes we look good in movies because we can act but people can see through the façade and realise we have no 'thing' going on between us. Then when you look at Shah Rukh and I. Well there is sizzling chemistry between us both onscreen and off screen which is obvious every time you look at us because we just cannot take our eyes off each other. I'm more in love with Shah Rukh than I have ever been in my entire life and I just don't understand why Ajay cannot see that?!
"I... What?" I mumble trying to actually comprehend what is going through his head. How can Ajay really be that disillusioned and think he really has a chance with me? I am married after all.
"I love you so much Kajol; I can make you happy," he mutters. Without warning he leans his face into mine at speed and before I have to chance to actually read the situation Ajay forces his lips onto mine. I pull back feel slobber lying on my lips as Ajay sits up straight. I place my fingers onto my lip and stare at Ajay. Had I invited him to do that? Am I in the wrong? Did I give him some sign? I wipe my lips with the sleeve of my jumper and stand up knocking some cushions onto the floor.
"What the hell Ajay?" I storm feeling slightly violated. Ajay looks shocked that I am furious by his actions.
"Kajol we love each other," he stammers and I laugh sarcastically shaking my head.
"No you're delusional," I shout, "I did not, do not and never will love you!" Ajay crumples his face in confusion. I swear I wasn't giving him any signs? I love Shah Rukh!
"But we have that spark between us," he whispers looking at me with puppy-dog eyes.
"No, we don't," I hiss, "I love someone else and that is not you." I try to turn away but Ajay grabs my right hand pulling me back. I rip my hand from his tight grasp and fold my arms over my chest. I shoot him a look before storming out of the room. Who cares about waiting for a car?! I can't wait in that room with Ajay any longer. As I walk the familiar route home I keep wiping my lips trying to remove any trace of Ajay Devgn from my body. His kiss had been like getting licked on the face by a dog. It was gross and made me feel uncomfortable. Shah Rukh's kisses though... They are delicate and dreamy and make me want him. Oh God. Shah Rukh is going to be so angry when he hears about what's happened. I hope he doesn't try and confront Ajay about it. I just don't want people thinking Shah Rukh and I are anything more than friends right now and so Shah Rukh confronting Ajay might give off the wrong messages. I type in the pin to our apartment block and walk through the reception to the lift. As the lift climbs to floor seven I feel a sick feeling in my stomach. I really hope Shah Rukh understands it was a one-way thing with Ajay...