Dear Insanity... I messed up again.

Chapter 20!

IVY'S POV

I sat there. I wasn't sure how to take all of this in. All of the reasons that Alex didn't like Danny was suddenly very clear. Danny avoided my gaze the entire time he spoke. What was he hiding? He fidgeted with his hands, his eyes darting back and forth.

"See, when I was a lad, my mate and I made a bet... On who could get the ice queen into bed with us first. I treated her like a queen, got her into my bed, and then left her on the curb. Told her I never wanted to speak to her or see her ever again." His eyes darted up to meet mine. "If I could take it all back, I would. I'm not the same as I used to be. I hurt her, and I feel dreadful about it."

"You should! Do you have any idea what kind of torture that caused? What kind of horror that she has lived since then? The physical and emotional abuse her family and 'friends' put her through? And all the nights I held her as she screamed and cried because she can't sleep at night, because she is so damned afraid to face reality?!" I was practically screaming now. "Do you understand the gravity of what you have done to her? To another human being? You RUINED her! For the rest of her life!" I got up. My anger had finally flared, and I was  beginning to panic. "Good night, and good riddance, Danny Worsnop. I can't believe I even thought about caring about you." She guestured at me, my face reflecting shock. I stormed back to the back of the bus, slamming open the door to see Alex, broken and bawling sitting in the corner against the wall.

"Alex, honey.. It's okay. I'm here!" I rubbed her back in small circles.

"It's not okay, Ivy! I'm a fucking mess and I can't even stand myself!" She inched away from me. That's when I noticed it. Blood dripping from her wrist.

"Oh, Alex..." I eyed her arm.

"No. Go away. I don't want your help." She spat coldly. "I just want to die." She said quietly, gazing affectionatly at the wounds that ran up and down her arms. I got to my feet and turned to walk out the door, and bumped into a very distraught Danny.

"Alex..." He started. She looked up and imediately regretted it. I could see cold hatred run through her. "Alex... I.."

"You WHAT?!" She stormed.

"I'm sorry." He replied, lowering his head.

"FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU, DANNY WORSNOP! WHY DON'T YOU GO AND EXPLAIN TO BEN WHY I CAN'T TRUST HIM?!" She screamed, backing further into the corner and avoiding eye contact. Danny, for the first time, had fear and concern etched into his face. He really was sorry. Danny turned and shoved his hands into his pockets. As he walked away, I could have sworn I saw a tear fall down his face.

I shook my head, and followed Danny. That was the biggest mistake I have ever made.