Unfinished

NeverLand

Ever got warned about somewhere by EVERYONE & you didn't listen and just HAD to find out for yourself ?

A lot of niggas in Edenwald reminded me of the lost boys from Peter Pan.. a lot of them didn't have actual family.. they were each other's family. Just countless apartments with no actual parents, it was weird in a way.

I think I always glorified edenwald, well atleast when I was younger I did. It had this mysterious dangerous allure. There'd always be a story about the projects somewhere, everyone had their own story and memories about the place where little boys raise themselves. I never really walked through it or paid it much attention when I was younger except for that time Cleo almost beat me out my school shoes.

It was something so sexy about all the boys from there. You couldn't help but to find them sexy and dangerous .. I eventually learned that a lot of them were actually corny and broke, except for the real ones. Apart of me wishes I never entered the project.. I think a lot of my childhood is still lost in there, sometimes I wonder how my life would be if I listened and never walked through there & got caught up.

With a big project comes a bunch of niggas .. a Neverland of lost boys.. just like Wendy In Peter Pan, I got attached to a few .

2010
Vin

In 2010 I was 14& working at baychester center. My grandmother had gotten me a job there and every day after school I'd work there till 10pm. I usually got off at 6 pm, but the bosses son was kind of a perv and took a liking to me, he'd always offer to drive me home and I would always be scared until one day I was real tired and was like fuck it. If something go wrong Ima just tell on his ass.. he told me I had to wait till 10 pm though because after our kids left they had open gym where all the boys would come play ball. I wish I just took my ass home that day !

As I sat at the front desk sign in everyone I realized that all the basketball players was fucking fire sis!!!! Watching them play was the highlight of my 14 year old life ! That was till Vin walked his ass in.. he wasn't even that cute, his body was made from god hisself ! He had these pretty ass light eyes though & he was a straight up asshole .. my little dumb fat ass loved that. Bitch everyday I would walk in that center cute as fuck ! Waiting for my man that didn't know he was my man! Mad weeks had gone by and he didn't even speak to me.. my lil spirits was crushed.. like daddy, I love you! Stop doing this please! Talk to me ! One day he randomly looked at me and said " give me your phone lil girl" & you know what this lil girl did ? GAVE HIM MY MOTHER FUCKING PHONE !!!!!

We had started texting and I was talking hotttttt, talking bout swallowing all his kids, spinning on the dick like merry go round, all this freak shit that I never fucking did not even once bitch! He was eating that shit up too. He thought he found him a real freak.. G'D YOUUUUUUU! I was being everything he needed me to be .. at the time he had to be like 20.. now a days of a girl that's 14 tell me a 20 year old want her Ima be real and say it's only for sex. Somewhere within us talking he had a soft spot for me. He knew I was young, and he knew I was scared so he took shit slow. I later found out he knew my brother so we was sneaking around, changing name contacts as random people and shit. It was fun as shit. Bitch I was running round with a grown man. I was that bitch okayyyyy?

Everything was cool till he finally wanted to put all that shit I was talking to test .. whole time I was a virgin. We finally met up and he pulled out this monster sausage. I didn't know what the fuck to do. I know it wasn't going in MY vagina though! Fuck was he talking bout????? I ended up giving him head. I almost threw up. Like it was really bad vibes. I was disgusted. After that day I think he was mad with me.. he never really contacted me again.

Eventually he got locked up. I was happy. Fuck him. Then he came home a few years later, around 2014/2015 .. by then I was fully belle Porter. I was not the little 14 year old he was sneaking around with, bitch I was grown. I was having Niggas eat my ass, I was ruining Niggas lives, snatching souls & ending careers. He wandered his way into my inbox through another person and he couldn't believe how I had turned out. I think apart of him was turned on and disappointed at the same time .. he apologized for disappearing on me & eventually he finally came to see me, I was so ready to have sex with his fresh home ass. I wanted the dick of my fucking life. I wanted him to rearrange my organs, I wanted him to end my existence with his penis sis. So he comes to get me driving all fast, got the heart in my pussy beating all wild & takes me to a hotel .. mind you this the first time I've ever been in a hotel with a nigga, and I was really ready to be WOWED !!!! Bitch.......... this nigga gave me 5 minutes of dry dick. Said " he just wanted to try the pussy & Then we left. After he paid for four hours. I was fucking disgusted bitch.. He was driving me crazy I couldn't believe he gassed me like he was gonna give me some wonder dick. I felt betrayed and lied to. Shit atleast let me keep the room , so I could call another Nigga over or something. After that we became really close.. we'd argue everyday, he'd disrespect me and tell me he had better looking bitches and didn't know why he was still dealing with me .... the answer is; I WAS SNATCHING THAT NIGGA SOUL. WHERE HE WAS GOING ? NO WHERE. He had to respect me , I turned into a disrespectful freak Bitch and that's what he was. So for a year we messed around until an argument ended us for good .. side bar tho: If y'all put the puzzles together and find out who this is.. tell him I love him and miss him

Eventually I met his brother in a total coincidence, ended up being in the same class freshman year of high school and became extremely close, as years passed by me and his brother had our own close friendship.

2014

Kye

I had met Kye by accident in 2012 and we had added each other on Facebook and had small conversations. He'd try to see me a few times and I had no interest really .. fast forward 2 years me and my friends were being petty and I had to take one for the team. We had heard a girl we didn't like was staying at his crib, and of course they sent me to spend the night to make sure she had no where to go for the night. We were assholes, till this day we don't even know if it was true. After fucking a few times we developed a friendship but by then I was already in love with him.. I was in love with everything he was. His humor, demeanor and his will.. it was nothing I wouldn't do for him & vice versa. He saved me from a lot of problems I got my self into and it just made me love him more, but the more he friend zoned me the more I moved on. I would be okay with being friends.. then he would turn around and fuck me again and there the feelings would go, rushing back. His bitch ass. I would spend days crying about certain shit he did but couldn't tell him cause I didn't wanna seem weak and now that I've analyzed the friendship .. fuck that nigga. He didn't really know me. He still doesn't. Just like the rest of the lost boys he was an asshole.

I had moved on from the edenwald phase and felt like I was above the old me I acted like I was never previously a groupie, nobody could tell me shit.. I was Belle now.. who was telling me what? With that being said, I moved the fuck on and became hated & untouchable simply because of who my bestfriend was.