Suzaku X Lelouch (Start Anew)

Geass

We were playing chess...

Lelouch was losing....

I could tell though his mind was elsewhere.....

"Lelouch.... Are you okay?"

"Hmm? Yeah... I am.... Why do you ask?"

It's still only been 3 days since I told him about Euphy's death....

Yet Lelouch kept his promise. The next day he had already started passing time with me again.

"....You are spacing out.... It's unusual for you to be losing in chess."

"Oh...! You are right! I am losing!"

"You just noticed that now...?"

"Sorry.... Okay I am gonna play seriously now."

"Ugh....yeah..."

10 minutes later...

"Checkmate."

"As expected you won after all Lelouch..... Nothing stops you, heh?"

"...I guess so...."

"..."

"Uum..... S-Suzaku-oniisan.... C-can I ask something?"

"Sure. Go ahead."

"Uum.... I was wondering but..... why.... are my eyes like this?"

"......"

"I saw a photo of you and me some years ago.... My eyes were purple back then.... Yet now they have this strange symbol...."

"Do you not like it?"

"I don't mind either way.... I was just wondering....."

I stroked his cheek gently before I started telling him.

But.... he arched up and pulled his face back.....

Is this him feeling guilty...?

Please don't do this to me Lelouch...

I sighed and then started again.

"Those eyes of yours are magical."

"Huh?"

"They can make anyone hearing your orders once to obey you. Though it can only be used one time per person...It's called geass."

"I... I can do that....? Then can it be Suzaku-oniisan is influenced by it too?"

I didn't know how exactly to answer without lying.

I can't lie to him. I won't lie to Lelouch...

Lelouch is the only and last person I don't have to lie.... I won't lie...

Lies were what made us come here after all.....

"Lelouch... you casted your geass on me."

"!?"

Lelouch made a face ready to cry.

"Do you want to known what order you gave me...?"

He gulped, but determined he answered steady.

"Tell me."

"Live."

"Eh!?"

"That was your order.... To the me who at that time thought dying would be okay.... I could atone of what I had done...."

He was at a loss of words.... I don't blame him though.

"So... in the end did I do a bad thing?"

I smiled gently.

"Not at all... I am happy you ordered me that..... Because now I have managed to achieve my goal."

"I see..... well then that's good."

"Lelouch... last time you told me you were sorry for killing that person that I loved right?"

"!??"

Lelouch's face was about to tear up looking down.

"That time I didn't manage to say I forgive you.... I am sorry. I don't know yet.... and I really don't want to lie to you... this is....something I decided."

"...I....I get it..... I bet you really loved that person....and I....I killed her.... so it's normal not to forgive me...."

"Lelouch.... close your eyes for a minute."

"Y...yeah...."

I think he was waiting for me to hit him when he closed his eyes.... it looked like that....

I felt bad for making him feel like this...

I moved my face closer to him. And touched his cheek gently once again.

Maybe that assured him I wouldn't harm him and he relaxed a bit.

I took that chance to kiss his half open mouth.

Lelouch's eyes opened wide.

I demanded entrance and the confused Lelouch didn't resist at all.

If my feelings were to be released just for a moment....

I want.... you to know Lelouch.... I want you to know..... I love you.....

I really love you... I don't get if I hate you or not.... But I know I love you....

So please don't go away again....

To be continued......
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Uum.... I have to admit I felt pretty sad while writing this...
Ahh.... I think I could write thousands of words for this story but my hands hurt so I will stop here for this month......
This pairing is gonna be the death of me T.T Too much drama!!
Anyway I have no idea what's gonna happen though so don't ask me xD My fingers decide!! (Lol)

Anyway see ya next month~