"Laura, I think I made a mistake." I told my best friend as we sat on my sofa watching a movie.
She turned her attention away from the television, "what mistake?" She asked confused.
I rested my hands on my growing baby bump and tried to fight the urge of breaking down in sobs. "Having a baby."
Laura's eyes immediately widened and I could tell she didn't know what to say. But I'm so scared to tell Simon how I feel that I needed to let it all out to Laura. She grabbed my hands and held them tightly. "Adele, listen to me. You are going to be the best mother anyone could have and Simon... he's already an amazing father. Just look at how you are with Scarlett, it's going to be so incredibly hard but I know if anyone can do it, it would be you."
I knew Laura was trying to make me feel better and I greatly appreciated it but she didn't understand where I was coming from. How could she though, because she wasn't a mother yet. Maybe Simon was the one I needed to talk to about this since he has already been through this.
After Laura left I patiently waited for Simon to get home from a work meeting that ran late. Just as I was about to fall asleep on the sofa he walked through the door.
"Babe? Why aren't you in bed?" He asked seeing me cuddled up alone on the sofa.
"I wanted to wait for you." I said with sadness in my voice.
Simon walked over to the sofa and sat down at the end moving my legs to lay on top of his. "What's wrong? Laura called me earlier." He started rubbing my legs and I instantly felt safe just being in his touch.
"What if this is a mistake? What if I'm not meant to be a mother? What if I love this kid too much? What if.." Simon cut me off by pulling me to sit up next to him.
"Angel, just breath. It's overwhelming I know but maybe you should go see a therapist or do something to take your mind off of everything."
I wrapped my arms around Simon and never wanted to let go. "What should I do?" I asked running my fingers up and down his arm that was holding me.
"How about we get away for the week? I can take off and Scarlett is back at her mum's so it's perfect timing." He said pulling out his phone to look up a place to go. "I have the best idea." Simon got up and ran upstairs.
About thirty minutes later he returned with a huge smile on his face. "What have you done?" I asked getting up and following him into the kitchen. "Remember how early in our relationship you mentioned you wanted to go to Hawaii? We're going." He casually said grabbing a beer from the fridge. I grabbed his hand and pulled him upstairs, shutting the bedroom door behind us.
"What's this about?" Simon asked as I started taking his clothes off. "Because I love you." I responded.
Later, we started packing for our trip and when we finished up I turned to look at Simon who was organising his suitcase. "I wish Scarlett was going with us." I said picking up a picture of the three of us from our dresser. As if I suddenly reminded him of something important he turned to me and said, "oh I forgot to tell you I'm going to dinner with some mates tonight. I'll be back in a couple of hours." He gave me a kiss and then left.
A couple of hours later I was laying in bed trying to keep my eyes open till Simon got home when I heard noises coming from the hallway. I figured Jack had gotten into something in one of the bedrooms when I noticed Scarlett's bedroom light was on. Thinking I had accidentally left it on while I was putting laundry away earlier I walked closer and saw a shadow.
"Adele! I missed you!" Scarlett yelled seeing me walk towards her. The surprise was so amazing that I found myself crying, which I had been doing a lot lately cause of the baby hormones.
"I missed you too, angel. Where's daddy?" I asked looking around for Simon.
"He's in the kitchen. He has a present for you." She informed me before taking my hand and leading me to him.
When I walked into the kitchen, Simon had it covered with candles, flowers and three envelopes sitting on the kitchen table.
"What's this?" I asked him picking up an envelope.
He walked towards me and wrapped me in his arms. "This is all for you baby. I know how much you wanted Scarlett to come with us so that's why she's here."
Tears once again filled my eyes as I opened the envelope that I was holding. Inside was a picture of the three of us photoshopped on the beach in Hawaii.
"I've rented us a plane and we leave at eight in the morning. You deserve all this and so much more." Simon said placing a kiss on my cheek.
The other two envelopes contained a sheet with out flight information and then a sheet with a list of activities we would be doing.
After Simon and I put Scarlett to sleep, we laid cuddled up next to each other in bed. "I can't believe you were able to get Scarlett to come with us." I told him with a smile on my face.
"I knew it would make you happy and I just want to see you happy for the rest of my life." He said stroking my hair off of my face.
"I'm always happy whenever I'm with you and Scarlett."
