Tangled in Love

Chapter 41: Good or bad!

"Marry me because I love you!",

He said with a wink and a smirk playing on his lips. 

That was fast than I thought,

Is it so simple to say those few words?

Honestly, I felt nothing when Jadlaan said these words to me in front of my family. Normally a girl would be on the ninth cloud and from that very moment she starts planning her future but I felt.

Even thou I have never been proposed and I have no idea how people propose but one thing I know that when a guy proposes his eyes are filled with emotions while his words scream out sincerity and commitment. His touch would be enough for you to know how passionately he is in love with you  while he holds your hand to ask you. He won't fake it because he will be scared that what if you;

REJECT HIM 

or

WHAT IF HE IS NOT GOOD AT EXPLAINING YOU THE THING HE'S GOING THROUGH WHEN HE'S WITH YOU!,

He would be a gentleman by keeping himself real in front of  you with all his flaws but sadly; I saw none of these things in him because all that I could feel was arrogance in his smirk with a wink that shouts out loud "Girl You are lucky coz I'm asking you to marry me!" and not to forget his words which were filled with attitude of a spoiled brat who only knows how to brag about himself. He wasn't scared either that what if I reject him, he's filled with confidence;

Actually, overconfidence.

I looked around, everyone was happy with his proposal and few guests seemed excited except one man Mr. Jaber who had no expressions on his face. Mom had tears in her eyes, uncle Saleh had a wide smile while Marwa was showing me thumbs up. All of them were waiting for my answer; so, they could cheer and celebrate the moment but;

What about me because I'm confused on knowing the new side of this guy who used be a very good friend of mine, I'm puzzled because I don't know what to say him. I feel my heart cold because the warmth of his love and affection is not melting me. His words seem meaningless but I'm also scared;

what if he does not love me as he say's,

what if I'm just a fling for him,

what if he only wants me because he's infatuated towards me,

 what if he cheats on me after getting married just like Dad left Mom and he would leave me alone.

Jadlaan has always been more than two or three relationships at once.

how could he be honest to me while he has always cheated on girls?

how could he love me only when he has learned to share it with many?

how could he be sincere to me while he has been always lying to his girlfriends?

how could he only be mine while his eyes still look at other girls like he wants them?

I took a deep breath and looked straight into his eyes and said firmly;

"I won't marry you because I don't love you!",

"but why?",

He asked me confusedly but Mr. Jaber interrupted Jadlaan  and questions;

"Do you love someone else?",

"No but I don't want to get married to him and that's for sure!",

Everyone gasped but Jadlaan steps towards me and shrugs me by my shoulder harder which was painful and say's;