Because I Knew You

I wanna be the one who wrecks you

When Kristin heard footsteps in the hallway, she looked up from the two dinosaurs in her hands with which her and Walker had played.

The moment Idina appeared in the door Kristin's heart broke. It was over. She knew it before Idina could even say something. 
"Mommyyy," Walker ran to Idina.

When Idina picked him up, Kristin got up as well.
"You know you shouldn't carry him. He's too heavy," she quietly said.
Idina let him down and told both, Kristin and Walker, the news which would leave Kristin absolutely heartbroken.
"Walker, we're moving back to our old apartment tomorrow. I need you to pack some of your stuff." The little boy looked a little bit confused but he followed his mom's orders and ran to his room.

Kristin didn't even try to hold back her tears.
"So it's really over?," she barely got the words out.

"I'm so sorry, " Idina replied, but she looked distanced as if she had already moved on. In reality, she just wanted to protect herself from breaking down.

She added, "I think it's better this way. For the baby, for Walker, Aaron and for you."

Kristin had always been understanding,  she had always supported Idina but now she got really angry at her.
"Oh please, for me? You know exactly how much you hurt me. I would've done everything for you, I would've taken care of a baby that wasn't mine. And you know it! You left me broken all these years ago. And it took me almost a decade to pick up the pieces. And I did all that alone while you had your pretty family at home. I was your second choice back then and I'm still your second choice today. And you know what? I'm tired! I'm tired of never being enough for you! I'm tired of being alone! I'm tired of watching everyone around me getting married and having children. I'm just so tired. So don't say it's better for me because it's not."
Kristin covered her face with her hands and sank to the floor.  Her legs couldn't carry her anymore.

She had been strong for too long and she had accepted everything and now the weight on her shoulders made her give in.

Idina felt helpless upon seeing Kristin so vulnerable but she knew that even though Kristin was mad at her, she just wanted to be held. So she sat down next to Kristin.
Minutes passed with none of them speaking.

While carefully rubbing her back, Idina started speaking again: "I'm so sorry! I was so stupid to assume that you were ok all this time and now I realize that I should've cared for you more often."

Kristin looked up, she wasn't smiling. "When exactly are you leaving?"

Idina sighed, "Tomorrow morning if you allow us to stay one last night. I'll sleep on the couch."

They were quiet for a moment until Kristin asked, "Would you do me one last favor please?"

"Of course, what is it?"
"Can we pretend that nothing happened? Only for the last few hours that we have left. We can cook dinner, watch a movie with Walker and just spend the night cuddling."

"Ok," Idina whispered.

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And they spent the night together, they just laid in bed, cuddled closely together. It didn't seem like much for a last night but it meant everything to Kristin.

She could've stayed mad at Idina and she could've asked her to sleep on the couch  but that would only have taken away more of her time with her one true love.

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The next  morning was hard for all of them. They finished breakfast and Idina got hers and Walker's suitcases.
The time came when they had to say goodbye. 

Walker looked sad, he asked: "Mommy, we can still visit Kristin right?"
"I don't know Walker. I really don't know!"

He didn't say anything but
jumped into Kristin's arms and hugged her tightly. The first tears escaped Kristin's eyes.
When Walker was done Idina politely asked him to  wait outside  because she needed to talk to Kristin alone.

"Idina, I hope you're happy. And I wish you, Walker, Aaron and the baby only the best for the future!"
"You don't have to say that."

"But I mean it! I really do. Because you know, when you're truly in love with someone you want them to be happy no matter how much it pains you. I hope you get the life you've always wanted."

"Kris," Idina whispered, she took Kristin's hand in her own. "I hope you find someone who makes you happy! I hope you can let go."

Truth is, Kristin was never able to let go. Not in the last 13 years and she knows damn well that she will never be. There would never be another person who could make her feel like Idina. No one who could make her eyes sparkle the way Idina did. No one who could make her feel like 17 again. No one who could make her feel so warm and fuzzy inside. No one who could make her smile so brightly and who could make her laugh so loudly. No one who could make her feel so protected. No one who could make this ugly world seem like the happiest, most beautiful place in the universe.

When the door closed behind Idina, Kristin slid down the wall. It felt like her insides were burning and her heart shattered into a million pieces. Then emptiness rushed over her. And Kristin couldn't tell what was worse.

She was alone. Again.
Broken. And she didn't know if she could ever be the same again.

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Hi everybody :)
This was the last chapter. Thank you for reading this story and for the nice comments. And I'm sorry if some of the chapters were crap.
I think I'm gonna write a sequel because I don't want Kristin to be sad!
Chenzel will never die! At least not in my heart ♡
I'll let you know when when the story's up!
So thank you again!!!! ♥
Bye!