Letters to an Optimist

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Yo Blanca,

Your guess' amaze me, princess.

Yeah, I don't give out compliments to just anyone, so you should be honoured and shit.

Just going to give you a small warning, get used to my 'negativity' as you call it. Its realistic thinking to me.

Can you promise me something? This is going to be the last letter I will have to waste my time on.

You wan to understand? How do you think I feel? All I know(that isn't a lie) is that I was drugged and put in a jail cell, and the cops said instead of spending time in jail, I can give them what they want. Which I was hoping you'd know what they meant. Do you?

You should, you are working with them. Maybe you could give up on this crappy service thing and help your hippie friend? It would be easier, wouldn't it? I'd still like to know why you have to do this?

I'm not sure Chief Dick-wad knows what he's talking about, a broken person doesn't understand another broken person, unless they've been through the same thing.

Now on a less sour note, yes, an incident with a dying relative was sad, and relatively depressing, but you seem to not care. Let alone be able to handle any more baggage. So why stick around and agree to do this?

Hey, mind doing me a favor? How the fuck can I get out of this? Other than completing the service, which will end...when does it end?

So if you are correct on the 'something good comes out of something bad', shit. I'll be bailed out of having to go to jail?

Hm, sometimes I really wish that was true, but princess, not all wishes come true. There are no such things as 'true happiness', if you're me; so I learned to give up on happiness and hope a long time ago.

Maybe you should just give up already, its not going to change anything, I'll still be thrown in jail, and left to rot there.

Why do I have a feeling you might be fuming? Then ranting on my crappy 'negativity' and tell me I've got to be positive and shit? Babe, once again, I'm not negative, I'm just speaking realistically. 

So goodluck with this whole 'trust me't fiasco, cause I ain't buying anything. They better start paying you if you've gotta handle me, 

Oh, and the whole, sooner or later thing, yeah; that doesn't work out for me.

Logan

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So first I wanted to thank you guys for getting this story to short story #136 and Teen Fiction #696. So thank you! :D

Also, dedicated to ForbiddenTragedy_ cause she made the cover on the side! THANK YOU! :p

Please tell me what you guys think, hope you enjoyed this chapter :p

Mack