Letters to an Optimist

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Hey Lo,

I never knew you actually read books, Lo. Always thought you just watched the movies, like every other dope I've met.

Oh my God, I'm swearing for no reason, and it's... pretty refreshing I guess. 

Don't you dare smirk! You cocky idiot. Yes, you are cocky, and an idiot. No offence, though.

But, you are still human (unless you're a Martian whom is suppressing the truth) and people are strange. 

Think about it, all humans were created differently, but why are we all judged differently as well? Can't we stay unique in our own ways, other than hide it in another? 

That's why I understand you sometimes Lo. 

We both (though completely opposite) have similar views on things. 

They told me you were messing with a gang. I didn't care. Everyone can make a mistake every once in a while, Lo. 

So why can't you? Why can't I?

You might be thinking I'm mental, I don't even know why Lo. That's what scares me.

I think I might as well be dead right now, I.

Argh, I'm sorry. I don't know how to explain things right now.

Life is literally shitty, to the point where I'm not even laughing or joking around, Lo. I'm scared, and I don't know what to do to get rid of the chill that runs up and down my spine, or the cold feeling I get everyday.

I'm not scared Lo.

I'm absolutely terrified.

Blanca.

P.S I think there is a thing as 'P.P.S', maybe its just the madness speaking, haha. 

P.P.S you draw? And you're drawing a person... whom you've never seen before? Lo, is the person you're drawing...

Is that person, by any chance, me?

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what the actual fuck did I just write? XD I don't know anymore. 

So, this story is sort of coming to an end, and I'm pretty sad because of that. I love Blanca and Logan so much, its weird. So excuse my 'wtf' chapter, cause idek anymore.

Dedicated to monsoon cause 'Bed Boy' is hilarious and amazing! I've read it over 3 times, (yesh, I'm slightly obsessed, don't blame me!) and its just perfect.

Please tell me what you think! I'd love some feedback from you guys :p hope you're enjoying it!

Mack