WHEN LOVE BATTLES WITH DEATH [#Missiondesi]

# 44 ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER

Some pages from Zara's diary

I'm Zara an insane who was madly in love with a boy named Yash, a companion of mine since from my early childhood. I call my love as insane because I don't know whether he have the love and importance on me like I have on him.

Few years before he left to London. His separation from me taught the cruelty of loneliness.

Even though I was surrounded with people who cared and loved me at home as well as in college I felt alone because I realized that my world was Yash.

I wanted to describe the depth of insanity in my love.

I'm in love with Yash even though our past memories were only quarrels and misunderstandings. For these three years I haven't seen him, I haven't talked with him but I'm in love with him. I can feel him around me.

The moment I received my first kiss from him was still fresh in my mind I know it happened while we are performing in a drama at school but I don't know whether that kiss conveyed me his love or he did it just for the drama.

Apart from my confusions my heart was stubborn that there was a love bond between us.

Nobody had made me to cry as he did. Nobody had made me to feel down as he did. Nobody had made me to feel alone like he did. Nobody had made me to feel the love like he did.

For these three years I was just a piece of flesh roaming in this world because he had already took away my life with him.

I just wanted to see him. I wanted to talk to him. But I was confused. I could get his phone number but I'm not sure that he would speak to me at least with humanity. I'm afraid that he would hurt me with his words because I'm sure that I cannot bear it anymore.

My prayers were for him. I was unable to get rid of the habit of filling each second of my life with his thoughts.

My mind knew that he was rude and arrogant to me and it is how he used to behave with me but my insane heart has been ignoring that fact. I'm struggling in between my heart and mind.