Hating a star

Chapter 21: I Wish I Helped

Gray's PoV

When I saw Natsu and Lucy return to home room together, Lucy crying her eyes out as her friends took them into their care, everyone glaring at Natsu, I instantly knew what had happened. Natsu probably still had his childish amnesia and being as thick headed as usual. I planned to talk to her after school or maybe visit her mom after all this time, maybe even catch up a bit. I wanted to help Lucy get close to Natsu again, even if he didn't deserve her. Even if he didn't remember. Maybe hitting him on the head will knock some sense into him. "Ow! What the hell, Snowman!" Natsu threatened to punch me after my unconscious blow, a lump forming on his noggin as we walked to last period. "Hit me with you best shot. Numb skull." I muttered the last prt, not really caring if we were to start a fight. Somehow, Lucy had been erased from every single one of his memories. Probably from the trauma of seeing her almost die or her head wound. Maybe even from watching her being purposely pushed to her death blew a fuse in his brain. Either way, it was all Lizanna's fault.

After Lucy's near death experience, we distanced ourselves from her, as Natsu was going on and on about how she was trying to kill us all. It was a lie though. Lizanna was some sort of Yandere. She was always jealous of how close Lucy and Natsu were, even when we just met them at the town festival. She would scare off anyone, young or old, male or female, who got close to him. Let's just say she had a screw loose.

And when we found out Lucy most probably wasn't going to wake up, Natsu fully indulged himself in our band, only something we messed about with now and then. He completely ignored any sort of development with her condition, good or bad, and worked and worked until we got a permission from our parents to move to the capital and become a official band. Which we all instantly agreed to and moved there with Natsu's mom, who had become our manager in the 2 and a half months we had been taking the band seriously for. A week after we settled in at the capital, I found out that Lucy's dad had run off with all there money, and her granddad's company. There was no sign of Lucy waking up, so I wasn't in urgent need to deal with it then and there. I thought I had my own problems that I had to deal with, like keeping Natsu in line so he could fulfil his crazy dream of his to get back to Lucy as soon as he could. We were 7 at the time. We were working like adults but we're messing about at the same time. Lucy was only 6. She had grown up with riches and happiness, but the only thing waiting for her when she woke up was a broken hearted mother and an old flat.

I had heard she woke up almost eight months after the accident, but I didn't pay much attention. I had my own problems. But she was my little sister. And I didn't help with a damn thin. That's why I hope I can help out now.

Lucy's POV

Last period went by in a blur. It mainly consisted of my head in my arms as I thought over my future plans. The teacher left me through it, as Mira had written for me a note that said I was going through some 'rough times'. When it was over, I told the girls to go ahead because I had to go to the library to pick up a book for history. Which was a complete lie, but, through many, many commands and some begging, they let me go, watching me until they turned to corner. I sighed a breath of relief when they left me alone and reached into my bag for the newspaper, throwing away every page but the ones with jobs on it. I wanted to discard as many piece of evidence I could.

As I looked over the single sheet of paper in my hands, an eery voice creeps up behind me. "Lucy, we need to talk." Gray spoke in a low voice, as we were in the library, and pulled me by the arm to the back shelves, a place no one would go. Except for Lizanna and her 'male friends'. While we walked, I stuffed the piece of paper in my bag, not wanting anyone else to find out.

We stopped and Gray turned to face me, much less confident than he normally is. "So... You know." I state, trying ever so desperately to be nonchalant about the whole affair. "Yes I do. And I am so, so sorry for not staying with you. I shouldn't have left and definitely not let Natsu leave. He was so torn up after what happened. He blamed everything on himself." Gray started babbling away, waving his arms around as he paced the floor. "Dude! Calm down and take a deep breath." I told him, making him stop freaking out because it was making me anxious. "Sorry, but I should've came back when I found out. I should've told Natsu and the others. I'm so sorry your dad-." I cut him off. I hated people talking about me dad. Apologising for the things he's put us through. He deserved the worst punishment imaginable. But, instead he's living al high and nightly in his city estate. "Don't." I simply stated, drawing a line with my fingers to stop him from going any further. "That man cut me and my mother out of his life along time ago. Same goes for she and I." I crossed my arms, looking up at a shocked Fullbuster. "Don't apologise when he's the one that fucked up. It's his own problem." I sighed, only half believing my own words.

After a while, he chuckled, wrapping his arm around my neck and rubbing my head roughly. "Always so strong Heartfilia. Never change, alright." He smirked down at me as I struggled under his playful attack. "You got it Fullbuster." I smiled a smile I haven't in a while. One that only happened when I relived a childhood memory. Something that hasn't happened for me in a long, long time.