You Can Sit With Me

Eight: Change of Heart?

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after the party, i thought long and hard about augustus.

maybe there's a chance he likes me? and maybe i can forget james then?

i'm afraid it sounds like i'm really confident in this (because we ignore the question marks).

but of course i am not.

it's just... i'm probably searching for another easy way out and got stuck in a dead-end.

yes, we- augustus and i, joke around a lot and it's fun to be around him but my i always get this longing in my chest whetenever i see james and i don't thing anyone can replace him at this moment.

however, i'm slowly starting to have hope there might be someone.

since i'm getting better at coping with my feelings, maybe it means they're fading. six (plus) months of having a crush- is a long time.

then i see james again and get confused, is this what i should feel now?

maybe i just got better at hiding things, even from myself...

i looked at my table and noticed that my pencil case is missing.

augustus stood in front of me, with his hand behind him and an overly innocent smile.

"wanna see a magic trick?"

"no."

by this time i was following him through the room and trying to take it back.

"come on, close your eyes."

"no, i want my stuff back."

"but this magic trick is great."

"the only magic trick that interests me is the one where my case appears back in its place, on my table."

"close your eyes and you'll get it."

i sighed and did as told.

after three seconds i peeked and saw him hiding it. augustus walked away, i quickly took the pencil case and hid it safely in my backpack.

hah.

'Girl