Stay Alive

I Want to Die

MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING- Suicide Attempt

It had been a terrible week for Alyssa. Monday, she heard a group of girls calling her outfit "disgusting" and were calling her "ugly." Tuesday, Sam found out and tried to confront the girls, but the girls just ignored Sam. Then Wednesday, Sam started a group chat with Alyssa, Hannah, Christy,...and Miranda. She was inviting them to a Christmas party that she'd be having a few days before Christmas. Miranda said she could go.

Alyssa told Sam that she wasn't sure if she could go. But in reality, she knew that Tyler would let her go. She didn't want to see Miranda again. Even worse, Sam was letting Miranda bring Jasmine! Alyssa didn't know how to tell Sam that there was a dark past between her, Miranda, and Jasmine.

Thursday night, Miranda started sending Alyssa hateful things. Stay away from my cousin
Tyler and Josh don't care about you
You don't fit in
Just stop trying
Kill yourself

Now, on Friday night, Alyssa was home alone. Tyler and Jenna had gone out for a date night. Josh went to the store to get groceries for the following week. Alyssa stared up at the ceiling of her room. They'd be better off without me. I'm no good for anyone. What's the point of even trying?

Alyssa slowly sat up. She left her room and went downstairs. Walking by the front door, she looked outside. Josh wasn't home yet. Alyssa continued walking. She entered the laundry room and glanced up at the cupboard above the washer. The cupboard was slightly open. She could see a bottle of bleach.

Reaching up, Alyssa grabbed the bottle's handle and brought it down. She held it in her hands. 5 minutes past. Then 10. Alyssa opened the bottle and stared down at the poisonous liquid. If I drink it, everyone can just go back to their regular lives without me. They don't care. All I do is bring everyone down. It'd be better for everyone if I was gone...I want to die...

Alyssa raised and tipped the bottle back. She swallowed some bleach. But immediately, her body convulsed and she threw up. She began to cough up blood. Alyssa fell to the floor and continued to cough until she passed out...

About 15 minutes later, Josh came home from the grocery store. "Alyssa! Can you come help me bring everything in?" He called.

When he got no response, Josh went upstairs and checked her room. "Alyssa?" He called again as he looked in her room.

She wasn't there. She wasn't in the living room either. All the bathrooms had their doors open. Where was Alyssa? Josh was getting worried now. He made a complete round of the house.

The last room was the laundry room. He turned and stopped suddenly. There was Alyssa, on the floor with a bottle of bleach resting on the washer. "Oh my God," Josh rushed to her side.

"Alyssa? Alyssa?" He pulled out his phone and dialed 911.

911 what's your emergency?
"It-it's my friend, she-she swallowed bleach," Josh tried to say in a calm voice.

He gave the operator the address then called Tyler. Tyler and Jenna had just finished dinner and were getting in the car. Tyler's phone rang. "It's Josh," He said, "What's up, Josh?"

"Y-You need to c-come home. Now. I came back from the store and...it's Alyssa. She drank bleach."

Tyler hung up the phone and quickly started the car. "Honey, what's wrong?" Jenna asked with worry.

"Alyssa attempted suicide."