>> a week later
I walk into Chelsea's room with her favourite flowers, Tiger Lily's. I sit beside her and hold her hand. I'm not going to school, I can't, not without her. I did this to her so I'm going to be here everyday until she wakes up.
"Hey man" Chris says walking into the room, I get up and hug him (bro hug) and sit back down
"How's she doing?" Chris says sitting on the other side of her bed
"She's doing the same as she was yesterday and the day before, and last week" I say running my fingers through my hair
"She's going to be okay Jake" Chris says noticing how much I'm stressing and worried, I nod and weakly smile at him.
I place my hand on top of hers and look at her. Even when she is in a coma she still looks so beautiful. I miss her smile so much, I never wanted this to happen, I'm the worst boyfriend ever.
A couple minutes later I feel her fingers move under my hand, I look up at her and see that her eyes are moving but she hasn't opened her eyes.
"Chris! Go get Ethan" I say, he then rushes to get Ethan. A few seconds later Ethan rushes in the room and is by Chelsea's side.
She flutters her eyes open and looks around the room, she tries to get up but Ethan and I tell her not to move.
"Wh-where am I?" She panicks
"Chelsea its okay, just stay calm" Ethan says
"What happened?" She asks
"You were in a coma" I reply, she looks at me with a confused face and doesn't say anything, God please remember me.
"Ethan, where's mum? Get me out please, please I don't like it. Where am I?" She starts to pull off monitors and trying to get up, I hop on top of the bed and pull her back so she is laying on my chest.
"Chelsea, its okay. You'll be fine" she starts to calm down
"You're okay, I promise"
"Where's Daniel? Where is my boyfriend?" Chelsea asks
"Chelsea. You're dating me" I reply
"But wh-who are you? Ethan where is Daniel?" She asks again. I've lost her, she's gone. She can't remember me, what am I going to do? A tear falls down my cheek
"I, um, I better go" I say rushing out of the room
"Wait" Chelsea says I stop and look at her
"You look familiar. Are we friends?" She asks
"No Chelsea, we aren't friends" I say and leave
I rush out of the hospital and call my mum to come pick me up.
I screwed up so badly, what am I supposed to do now? She can't fucking remember me, and it's my fucking fault. I've lost her, I'm not getting her back. I love her so fucking much, but she doesn't even know me. She won't know all the amazing memories we had, all the laughs we shared, all the nights we spent together, all the tears we both shed, all the conversations about our messed up lives that she listened to and that I listened to, she won't know how much she means to me, she won't know what it felt like to kiss me or hug me, she won't fucking remember and it's all because of me.
*Chelsea's POV*
Everything is a blur. I can't remember much, Ethan gave me the run down on what happened and told me what happened between me and Daniel, honestly I'm glad because he was a dickhead. But I feel like I'm missing a chunk of my life, I feel like I'm missing something or someone who meant so much to me, but who?
>> next day
The doctors realise me today because they said I'm doing extremely well. I get home and run up to my room and jump on my bed. Ugh so fucking comfy. I get up and notice a whole bunch of pictures on my wall, I look through them and recognise most people, like Ethan, my Mum, Chris, Lily, Jenny but I can't remember who this is. I pull down a photo of a me with a boy with perfect brown hair, a beautiful smile and the most gorgeous eyes I've ever seen, there is a love heart maker around both of us, I flip the photo over and find a message
Chelsea,
I know that you won't remember me after the accident, but I found this photo of us two the day we met. I'm sorry that you can't remember, I did that to you. If you find this note, get Ethan to drive you to my house, my name is Jakob... if you can't remember, I'll explain everything to you.
Lots of love,
Your boyfriend, Jakob xoxoxo
After I read it I get Ethan to drive me to his house, just like the note says to do.
I knock on his door and he greets me by pulling me into a hug.
"How are you feeling?" He asks me
"Um, a bit strange. These past few days has been a lot for me to take in and I can't remember much" I say
"Well you are probably wondering who I am" he says and I nod, he looks down
"Chelsea I'm really sorry" he says with tears flowing down his cheeks
"Sorry for what?" I asks
"The day you knocked your head, the night before we had an argument. And I said some things that I didn't mean and I never got the chance to tell you I was sorry" he says still with tears rolling down his cheeks
"What did you say?" I ask
"Close your eyes. Try to remember, please" I do as he says and I try my hardest to remember what happened
"I can't remember any-"
Before I could finish I had a flow of flashback come rushing through my head.
Flashbacks of the argument, school, how we met, my best friends, the nights we spent together, the laughs we shared, the way it felt to kiss and hug him. Everything just comes back like I'm watching a movie.
I open my eyes and I start to cry
"Oh my gosh. J-Jakob" I say looking up at him, he runs up to me and holds his arms out and engulfs me into a tight hug
"Chelsea. I can't begin to explain how sorry I am. I swear on my life I didn't mean anything I said on that night, I love you Chelsea, I miss you so fucking much it hurts" he says while I sob into his chest
"It's okay, Jakob it's okay. It's not your fault" I reassure him
"It is my fault and don't try to convince me it isn't. I did this to you, I put you through this pain. I thought I lost you forever and I was so scared, Chelsea I have never been more scared of losing someone" we hold each other as we have a moment of silence
"Oh my gosh, I missed your birthday" I say looking up at him
"It's fine babe, I still came to visit you in the hospital, I was always there, from 5 in the morning to 11 at night, I never left your side"
"I love you so much Jakob" I say
"I love you more" he says as he plants a soft kiss on my lips
"God I've been wanting to do that for so long, I was going crazy without being able to hear your voice, or see your smile, or kiss your perfectly soft lips" he says looking deeply into my eyes, I smile and hug him again
"Come on babe, let's get you to bed" he says helping me up to his room, he changes me into one of his t-shirts and his grey sweatpants, he places me into his bed and he grabs my waist to pull me closer to him, I turn around and cuddle up into his chest
"I never want to let you go now that I have you" he whispers
"Then don't" I reply he kissed my forehead and we both drift off to sleep.
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Loving Jakob Delgado // fan fiction
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