Wanted

Chapter 15

I sat there peacefully in the gardens just listening to the peaceful sounds of nature birds were chirping peacefully to each other and I couldn't help but feel a little pang of jealousy for their carefree lives , no troubles or painful experiences , I sighed sadly .

" Here we go ! I made you a chicken sandwich with some home aid fries and some iced tea !" Alyssa set me by the table near the fountain and set my tray down in front of my and smiled . I just stared at it , I had never seen some much food meant for me I didn't know what to do .

" Sweetie , well go on , eat ," I blinked , and stared at her and all I could think is ' Is this for real ?' She just looked at me and smiled .

I stared at the food again afraid to approach it , I hesitantly took a French dry and nibbled on it , she smiled at me and pulled up a chair next to me .

" So ? Since we're going to be living together I think we should get to know each other !!! We can learn all about each other ooooh we are going to be such great friends !!" She was squirming in her seat and smiling like she won the lottery , I continued to ignore her and slowly eat my French fries one by one .

" Ok ! So oh my god I don't even know your name ! Oh my god I'm such a blond sometimes ," she smiled brightly at me , I sighed softly .

" So what is your name ?" I didn't answer her , I just continued to eat .

" Alyssa there you are baby ." I stiffened and shrank in my chair .

" Oh we'll I'm here I was just sitting with Xander's mate ," I glanced up .

He looked around Xander's age , his build was talk and broad and his features were strong . He was nice looking he had kind brown eyes and sandy blond hair , his nose was straight and his lips were semi full over all he was pretty handsome .

' Not as handsome as our mate ,' I sighed , my wolf was right as much as I hate to admit it this man could never compare to Xander in my eyes .

" Lyss I said warm up to her and let her feel safe not scare the poor thing in her chair by bombarding me with questions ," I saw Alyssa blush slightly .

" Sorry markie , it's just I'm happy for Xander and you know I always get excited meeting new people ," he smiled lovingly and kissed her temple .

" Just ease into it next time baby ," I just watched him wrap his arms around Alyssa and nuzzle her neck lovingly while rubbing her big belly gently , it made my heart hurt to watch

" I know I'm sorry mark ," he kissed her cheek and smiled .

" Oh sorry ! This is mark my mate he's also Xander's beta ," Alyssa smiled at me , I just stared blankly at her and then to her mate mark , he smiled gently at him and I could see his eyes held pity and I know that pity was towards me .

" Hi Rosie ," I blinked then slowly swiveled away and continued to eat not looking at them , I heard Alyssa whimper .

" Did we do something wrong mark ?" She was whispering but I could still hear that , I just wanted to be left alone .

" It's not you baby she's been through a lot , she's just healing baby that's why I said be gentle and ease into it , she doesn't really take to any one even Xander . She's just afraid baby ok? You have to be gentle ," his cooing made my heart twist , I haven't had that affection like that in 12 years , I don't even remember how that feels like , it made me loose the little appetite I had .

" Oh that poor thing , if I had known I wouldn'tve been so forward to her ," I curled up in the chair and rested my chin on my knees .

" It's ok baby you didn't know , don't worry I'll you more later ok ," she sighed softly when he kissed her and my heart twisted more .

" Ok but I'm holding you to that promise ," I sighed softly and closed my eyes , I faced my pain head on and let it make me become numb .

I heard their footsteps as they left arms around each other , it made my heart twist and chip it's fragile state even more broken , it was so destroyed that I don't think it could be fixed . Tears slithered down my cheeks at a snails pace , I knew I didn't deserve that type of affection and love , it was hopeless to think that I'll ever have that type of love I was too broken , I didn't deserve it .