Wanted

Chapter 18

I don't know long Xander and I stayed like that but I didn't really care, for the first time in a long time I felt safe, and I didn't want to let it go.

" I love you more than anything Rosie, please don't leave me please baby I can't loose you ," Xander's voice was muffled but my heart ached, no one has said this kind of thing to me in a long time, the last time some one said I love you was my dad and I was 6. My heart ached even more when I thought of him, I know it's bad to think about him when he hurt me so bad but, I knew how much pain he had for loosing mom. And he was still my dad iI'd always love him.

" I won't give up until your better I want you to get better ," I let my eyes close and tighten my grip on Xander's neck.

" Xander ?" my voice was barely there but his head shot up.

" Why ?" his big hands gent cupped my face gently I flinched.

" Why what baby ? You can tell me what's wrong ," I pulled back a little and swallowed looked down at my hands.

" Why ... a-are you trying s-so h-hard ?" it was hard to breathe after that sentence that's the most iI've spoken in years and my body wasn't used to it what so ever.

" Because your my mate and I love you, I will always try for you always ," he wiped my cheeks gently and I glanced up into his bright teen eyes and I got sucked in again. It was like a moth to a flame his eyes seemed endless and theirs I looked at them the different bright and darker greens I saw, he had bright fresh summer grass green eyes but the more I looked at them I saw brighter flecks like a high summer grass, but then you could see darker flecks like the colors of grass against a setting sun. All I could do is stare into his eyes I was just sucked into the green orbs, it was like I was trapped in a endless sea of greens.

" I will always try to get you whatever you need and want I care about you so much I never want to be apart from you because it literally hurts to be apart from you, I love you so so much you have no idea. I want to help you Rosie, I want to help you get better because I care, please baby let me .. that's all I ask from you is to let me ," his face was pleading with me. I didn't know what to do, I've never been in this kind of position before, but I just ... couldn't break his heart because... I really cared for him already. I knew my voice would fail me so all I could do was nod, his face just lit up and he looked so happy he was grinning ear to ear.

" I love you so much !!!" he gave me a kiss on my nose and jumped up smiling and laughing, his whole face was beaming with happiness he squeezed my hands gently and kissed them softly, he stood up jogging off smiling and just left me there feeling confused and thinking 'what the hell did I just do and what the hell have I started ?'