Crazy Little Thing Called Love

Guilt Or How I Have The Styles Charm

Hi everyone, I am supposed to study for my exam on Tuesday but this is so much more fun. I hope you enjoy this little insight. All the love, Summer xxx Ps. I really love this photo and I really, really love their friendship. :) 

Harry's POV (A.N. You really seemed to like it the last time so here we go again):

The film had just finished and we were chatting a bit, when Claire got up to use the bathroom and promised to make us all a cuppa tea on her way back. "Don't forget to wash your hands." Louis called after her and she flipped him off before disappearing into the bathroom. I waited until I heard the bathroom door close behind her, before I turned around to face Louis. "So, how do you really feel about me and Claire?" I asked him quietly and he looked up from his phone. "You can be honest with me, mate, I know that you're not as okay with it as you pretend to be in front of her." He locked his phone and shoved it back into his pocket before his eyes met mine again.

"I love her, Harry, I really do. But her and I were never meant to work out, it has always been you since the start. I just kind of tried to ignore that." His voice broke at the end of the sentence and he avoided my gaze. I felt my heart break for my best mate. The guilt had been eating me up for months and it had only gotten worse since Claire and I had kissed a couple of days ago. "It hurts." Louis admitted and finally met my gaze again. "But you're my best mate and as much as I am upset about you and Claire, I'm also not not happy for you two. You're both way too good for this world anyway and I have seen the way you look at her, Harry. I would never try to take that away from you." He gave me a weak smile which didn't quite reach his eyes.

"The guilt has been eating me up for months." I admitted quietly and a look of surprise appeared on his face. "Guilt? Why the bloody hell would you feel guilty, mate?" he asked me bewildered. A bit confused, I looked over to him. Was he being serious right now? "I fell in love with your girlfriend, Lou! I took your girlfriend from you! I am the worst best friend in the world!" I exclaimed and then quickly lowered my voice when I realised how loud I had become. "That's bullshit, Harry, and you know it." Louis replied and gave me one  of his 'Don't talk shit to me' looks which he had perfected over the years since I had met him.

"I am the one who needs to feel guilty, not you." he started off and I opened my mouth to protest, but he held up his hand, so I shut it again. You just didn't interrupt Louis when he gave you that look. "I was the one acting like a selfish prick. I felt the connection between the two of you since the start and I still went for her. I knew that I would probably eventually fall in love with her when she fell into me on the Tube that day. Those green eyes didn't leave my mind the whole day and then she suddenly greeted us at the hotel when we had the meeting and didn't take any shit from me and I had never wanted to get to know someone so badly. But I have also known you for years and I knew you were just as smitten with her as I was. After El I was so desperate for love and affection and she was there and she was... perfect, you know? So I tried to ignore the guilt I felt towards you and made a move on her and she seemed to like me, too."

Louis was quiet for a couple of seconds and seemed to be lost in thought. I didn't dare to interrupt him, so I just watched quietly and after a moment he continued. "I never meant to tell her that I was in love with her, it just slipped out of my mouth and I couldn't exactly take these words back. I knew that she wasn't in love with me, but a tiny part was still hoping for her to say it back one day. If I hadn't said it that day, I probably would have waited until I was absolutely sure that there was nothing but friendship going on between the two of you." he explained and looked over to the hallway where we could hear Claire in the kitchen. "I knew that you two had something special and I still went for her and that, my friend, makes me the worst best friend in the world." he finished off his speech and leaned back into his arm chair, his blue eyes watching me intently.

There was a short silence, the only thing that could be heard was the sound of Claire making tea in the kitchen which floated into the room through the nearly closed door. "Lou?" I asked after a couple of seconds and he raised an eyebrow in response. "Please don't feel guilty for falling in love with her. Never ever feel guilty for being a little bit selfish sometimes if that's what makes you truly happy. Even if it means going for someone your friend potentially likes." A small smile appeared on his face and he shook his head. 

"Why do you always have to be so fucking noble and forgiving all the bloody time? No wonder that all the girls fall for the Styles charm." He threw a pillow at my head which I only managed to dodge in the very last second, before we both burst out laughing. "Are we alright?" I asked him hesitantly when we heard Claire's steps approaching the living room and he nodded and pulled a weird face at me. "Just don't screw this up." he said quietly, just as Claire entered the living room again with three cups of tea in her hands. But his warning was unnecessary. I knew that I would do anything to keep this extraordinary woman happily at my side