Crazy Differences Between Us

Amelia Ch. 19

"Amelia, when are you going to come down from there?" My mother yelled.

"I'm not feeling well mom!"

"You have to go to school. You know I only let you and Joey be absent once a semester."

"But I'm still not feeling well," I respond.

It was true. Ever since the day after homecoming, my stomach had been uneasy. I've had massive headaches and to be completely honest, I think the stress of school and this whole Carter ordeal, was finally getting to me.

The fact that I was sick basically have time to think about everything that had happened so far. Carter and I were supposed to be "breaking up" next week, but neither one of knew exactly how it was going to go down. From the times I saw Carter before the whole homecoming thing, most girls would breakup with him for cheating. Now, I never knew if this was true, but I wouldn't doubt it.

I don't really know why i'm feeling the way I am. I never should've thought that it would actually work out between us. I mean surely it can't. Right? He's too different. Most people probably saw through it anyways. But what about everything i told him? It must've made an imprint. I was able to put my trust in Carter, but I don't know why. He was just there, and i let it out. But I shouldn't have. And now look where I'm at.

I stayed stressing in my room for what must've been 6 hours. I didn't even hear my door open until the person was right in front of me.

"So sorry to show up unexpectedly Amelia, but we had said you could help me today. And your mom let me up although she said you weren't feeling well so I can leave if you want, but you'd said today would work," Kaden blabbered.

"Uh, yea I'm not feeling too well right now. Maybe some other time, Kaden."

He glanced around nervously and finally his eyes searched mine. "Um, yea that's fine." He kept standing there as if he had something else to say. Kaden finally moved to the door before pausing there again. "You know if you ever want to talk or something, I've been told I'm a great listener and um yea. Bye Amelia."

"Bye Kaden." I stayed there for a moment, trying to process what had just happened. I heard the front door shut and quickly grabbed my phone to text someone.

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"When I said I would listen, I didn't think you would take me up on it so quickly." Kaden said, staring at me from across the booth.

Once I heard the door close, an urge came over me, and made me realize I did need to talk. I could've easily have called Alexis, but I didn't exactly think she would understand. So I took Kaden's offer and texted him to meet me at the diner I had been at with Carter just a couple of weeks ago. He instantly agreed and here we are now.

"Yea, I don't know why, but I felt like talking might be what I actually need." I started. "I'm sorry that I couldn't help you today, but if anything you'll end up helping me."

"Sure yea, anything. But if you don't mind me asking, why couldn't you just talk to Carter or even that girl you're always with. Alex? Alexa?"

"Oh you mean Alexis. Yea I could've I just don't think she'd understand to be honest," I replied.

"Ah okay. Makes sense. Well just go for it." He said.

And then I went blank. I didn't know where to start. My mind seemed to be in overdrive, but also in the state of not wanting to work. If that made any sense. I stared off to the distance and let it wander. Finally after a moment or two, I was able to speak.

"To be honest, I don't even know what's wrong. I sound crazy but I truly don't know. Life's just an unexpected crazy. The reason I came here to talk is probably not even what I thought was wrong. I don't let many know, but I work a certain way. It becomes an issue. Basically my mind will find a problem and attach itself, but from there it leads to another and another, and I won't stop. It sounds cliched but on the outside I can be fine and dandy, but in the inside I'm about to burst. My life isn't the greatest as everyone thinks. So many girls have asked how I ended up with Carter, how I'm so smart, how I'm athletic. Well it's all a lie. I didn't want Carter. To be honest I'm not sure if I want him now. I don't know if he told you, but the relationship is fake." I paused then continued once again. "My smartness, my athleticism, is from pressure. Sure now I can't live without math or basketball, but I never had a choice. They created me and I played the part. But now these past weeks has made me realize I don't want to be who I am. I don't want to be a fake."

Kaden looked at me like if he was trying to put the pieces together and I sort of just sat and squirmed in my seat. It wasnt until he suddenly spoke that I felt just a tad better.

"Wow. Um that's a lot. I don't even know what to say really." He said.

"You know what, I shouldn-" I said getting up.

"Hey no it's fine sit back down. I just needed to process everything. I mean that was a lot. I think it took guts for you to say all that, especially to someone you don't even know all that well. But still we can discuss this together if you'd like." Kaden stopped me.

I sat back down and looked at him. He looked right back at me with pleading eyes as if to let him help me.

"Okay." I mumbled.

"Good. Now just start from the beginning. The first thing that brought you to this." Kaden said.

And then, I went off once again.
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Yo wassup. It's been like 4 months since we updated..... Crazy I know. Just so much has been going on in our lives. If we even get 15 reads on this chapter, imma cry.

The song up there is by an artist I recently started listening to. I don't know why this chapter reminded me of this song.

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Happy Easter lovely people!

-panic2902