I need to get this out before I explode to say how I actually feel truth is I'm not okay, not with us I hate it
I hate that you left I hate that you didn't even care I hate that you were fine I hate that it hurts so much I hate that I was right.
You used to joke and say I could never get rid of you because I knew too much and you would have to kill me.
Truth is you did and I can't stand this awful feeling of not having you in my life anymore it's like my heart was just taken from me.I know you have your reasons for leaving and deciding why I shouldn't be apart of your life anymore.
I'm sorry for it all every single fight and argument we ever had I won't be selfish and beg you to stay.I've been selfish this entire time it seems.
all because of a stupid argument on Thanksgiving day over something so small when we've had so much worse.There was only so much you could take and I didn't know if I had known that it would have caused you to leave I would have let it go and told you how much I loved you.
But it's too late now and now I have to deal with it but I don't even know how to.
I miss you so much that it hurts it's like I can't go a moment without having you in my thoughts even when my music is blasting in my ears there is no escape from the happiness you once brought me.
I love you and I'm sorry.