Lost Love

[CHRISTMAS EVE UPDATE] Chapter 16: My feelings

Sorry if I hadn't uploaded for a long time, it's because I've been doing some special Christmas updates so :3 I've been writing a couple chapters to publish on this special day :3 HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY!!

And also... I'm thinking about having a race with Yuriko aka HydraSparks. We'd each have the same amount of chapters and whoever gets more wins reads and votes wins :3

Kuroko's P.O.V:

Everyone else and I watched Hayato confess his true feelings to her... Not Asuka... Nor Miyako... But Yuriko-chan. I felt jealous to be honest, seeing them together and then me... no one liked me... I wish Asuka-chan knew about my feelings. The ones that I fail to express to her. I want her to know. But I'd lose Yoshi... if I confessed. I kept curling up on my bed, thinking about how it would be like to like someone... who actually liked you back. I kept thinking... and thinking... and the result was that... she'll never fall in love with me. I pulled the blankets back on me and took my pillow. I wish... that someone would like me. No one ever asked me who I liked and no one ever confessed to me either. I felt really lonely. Whenever I say something like 'maybe I like someone', no one seems to really care nor do they really try to find out. Does no one notice me at all?

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I went over to Yoshi's house, unlocking the door with the spare keys he gave me. I expected only Nishinoya to be awake at this hour but then I heard the television on. Nishinoya wouldn't usually watch television in the morning. I walked in to see someone else. She turned around and saw me, a light smile formed on her face and I felt noticed. Not in any kind of romantic way but she didn't say anything like 'why are you here' or 'get out'. I felt appreciated to be at their house... for once.

HydraSparks estellehyun sunnyrocks12 I really wonder who he likes ._.

I locked the door behind me and sat down next to her. She didn't seem to mind. She still sat there, calmly, watching Mirai Nikki. It looked pretty... weird... to be honest. After a while, I got tired of seeing the so called 'Yandere Queen', Yuno, killing people to protect her beloved Yukiteru. I walked upstairs to find the washroom. While I was doing ._. um ._. some stuff [NOT IN ANY WEIRD WAY], I heard a knock on the door and I opened the bathroom door to see Nishinoya's sleepy face.

"Hi Kuro-nii. Are you here to see Yoshi-nii?" I didn't come for any reason but I nodded anyways. Exiting the bathroom, I walked over to Yoshi's room. I slammed the door open. "RISE AND SHINE YOSHI!" I shouted as I jumped on his bed. And... there was no one. The bed was empty and all was left was the lights open and a note on his desk. "Onee-chan, I went to go see Asuka-chan. I hope you understand that I love her... more than anything."

Rage grew in me and I tore the paper apart. "That bastard." I threw the paper in the trash and stomped out of the room. Leaving the house quickly, locking the door and walking out. Then I stood there... I don't even know her address. I opened the door and walked back inside. Tapping Shana-onee-chan's [no, i'm not Kuroko's sister ._. but that's what they call people's best friend's older sister in Japan] shoulder. She turned and gave me a confused look. "Need something Kuroko-kun?" I nodded. "Do you know Ayume-san's address?" She nodded slowly and grabbed a piece of paper. She handed it to me and I looked up her address on my phone. "Thanks."

I ran out of the door and followed the map to her house. I got there in about ten minutes and before I knocked on the door, I felt something. I put my hands on my cheeks and noticed that my face was cold... and tear drops dripped. I wanted Asuka to love me so bad... BUt I'm not good enough for anyone am I... And I still wondered...

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Why no one could ever like me...

SRY FOR DEM LONG PARAGRAPHS :3

Or am I sorry ;)