The Aftermath - A Gilmore Girls Revival Fan Fiction

Chapter 29

I Am Ace by R. G.

For those of you who don't know Logan Huntzberger on a personal level, let me tell you a little about him and our evolving relationship. Not only is he one of the most successful people in the country, but he is also one of the most generous, amazing and adventurous people I have ever met. He has taken me on a journey of highs, and lows, and every roller coaster in between.

Our relationship is complicated, and it always has been. I've had quite the spectrum of emotions flow through me from the very first impression to the way I see him now. At first, I hated Logan, like ACTUALLY despised him. He seemed like the most self-entitled, egotistical, imperious spoiled-brat rich-kid I had ever met, buying everyone off who was inferior to him, with his daddy's black card.

Eventually, my burning hatred for him turned to tolerance, which then slowly developed in to feeling butterflies every time he walked into the room. And then, without any warning, it went straight to a gut-clenching love that I could never ignore, no matter how hard I tried. Not even nine years later.

Against all odds, after a whole whirlwind of events happened, he caused me to feel more alive than I've ever felt before in my life. He taught me that no matter how scary something may seem, you will never know what you're capable of until you just jump in, and do it. He has proven that to me, time and time again, to be true

Logan has been a very important part of my life - he is one of the only people who have pushed me to my limits, encouraged me without ceasing, and believed in me even when I couldn't believe in myself.

Even though we haven't been together in what feels like forever, we continue to be drawn to each other, as if driven by something bigger than ourselves that continuously pulls us back with as much heat, and passion, as we started with.

After three crazy years of dating, and what should have been the happiest day of my life, Logan and I were ripped away from each other. He had asked me to marry him, and I was at a point in my life where I had no other choice but to say no, and he didn't want to stay together unless I agreed to marry him. I wanted to pursue my career in journalism without the 'Huntzberger Brand' that would have opened up so many doors for me. It's not that I was ungrateful to have the opportunity at my disposal, but I wanted - no, I needed to prove to myself, and to his family, that I could make something of myself by earning it. I didn't want to have it handed to me, and I wanted to prove that someday I would be worthy enough to marry such an amazing man like Logan Huntzberger.

I never in a million years believed that he would have ever decided to marry someone else. He is marrying a woman who is so many ways amazing for him, but in even more ways, terrible for me. Her pedigree is incomparable and she is flawless, and I just wanted her to go away. I wasn't ready for him to move on, and I don't think I ever will be. How can anyone be okay living with only half of their heart? Walking away from him was the absolute hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. It completely obliterated my world, and I was mind-numbingly devastated.

No matter how much I want him to be happy, I just can't help but pray that he finally wakes up, comes to his senses and leaves her. For me. Because it's impossible to unlove someone like Logan. It just can't be undone, no matter how hard I try. The youngest Huntzberger still has my heart, and he always will. I'd just like to think that no matter what happens, I will always have a piece of his heart, too.

I don't want to be 'that' girl who breaks up a potential marriage, but I just don't want to see him get married for the wrong reasons. Love, companionship, trust...those should be the driving factors. Not a deal that his parents cut out for them for money, power and entitlement. Neither of them should be forced to marry out of obligation, or convenience. Life is too short to spend it with someone you don't even like.

So who is Ace? And why is she so important to Logan? Well, I would like to think that's because she still loves him as much as he loves her. And because I Am Ace.