The Aftermath - A Gilmore Girls Revival Fan Fiction

Chapter 42

I woke up the next morning in my room of the suite, and I realized where I was, and remembered Logan fell asleep with me last night, and even though nothing 'happened', I still expected him to be there this morning...

I immediately started feeling a sense of panic wash over me as I stood up from my king sized bed cautiously. I wanted to find out where he was, but I was terrified that I wouldn't like hearing the truth.

I went to my private bathroom and checked the mirror for crazy bed head hair, and made some adjustments with barely enough time to pee before the baby squeezed it all out of me. Sheesh! I will NOT miss this stupid symptom!

After washing my hands, I rinsed my face with cold water - telling myself to stop procrastinating just because I didn't want to have to deal with the fact that Logan may not be on the other side of the bedroom door. I took a deep breath and walked out of the bathroom, out of the bedroom, and into the main living area. My mom and Lane were up and at 'em, but no one else was in the room.

They looked surprised to see me, and they noticed me looking around the suite, and the heartbroken look on my face.

My mom sighed before she spoke. "He's not here, kid. I'm so sorry. I heard him sneak out of here pretty early this morning" she whispered.

Tears came to my eyes quickly as my worst fears were confirmed. He took off. I didn't want to believe this. Why would he leave me!? He chose me! Wait... but he didn't chose the baby... I was so worried about making sure he didn't get back together with me just for the sake of the baby, it didn't even occur to me that he might pick me and then be terrified of the idea of becoming a father! My heart was breaking and I sank down into the chair, staring out ahead of me, unable to fully process what was actually happening. He'd left me...

"Rory, I'm so sorry. I had no idea he would do this" Lane promised.

I nodded, not really paying attention, but knowing she'd said something.

"Let's all three go to breakfast. I know my little Jellybean is getting hungry in there. She's half Gilmore, you know" my mom said.

"She?" Lane asked with a laugh.

"Well, yeah, it's got to be a she. To carry on the tradition" my mom said.

Lane smiled and nodded. "Rory, come on sweetie, let's go to breakfast" she said, trying to get my attention.

I just brought my knees to my chest, hugging them, and dropped my face down onto my knees and cried uncontrollably. I didn't know what in the hell to do, nothing made any sense. I just wanted Logan back. He should be here, to comfort me, and to kiss my tears away, but he wasn't there! He'd left me and he wouldn't be coming back.

My mom knelt down beside me, and she took me into her arms, holding me tightly and rubbing my back gently. "Sweetheart, I'm so, so sorry. I feel terrible! I figured he would've been back by now or I would have tried to stop him, but it's been hours" she whispered.

I looked up at her with my face soaked in my own tears and I just silently pleaded to her with my eyes to be wrong. More than anything I've ever needed before in my entire life, I NEEDED her to be wrong about this.

She looked as if she were about to cry also, and all she could do was shake her head helplessly. "I think he's really gone this time, baby" she whispered.

I dropped my face back down to my knees and I just lost it. "I can't do this! I can't! This is too much! Mom, how can he do this to me!?" I cried.

"I don't know, baby, I don't know, but if I see him I'm going to kill him, I can promise you that!" she whispered.

We could hear someone moving around in one of the other bedrooms, and knowing that I wouldn't want to explain the entire situation to someone else, Lane quickly pulled the three of us back to my room, shutting the door behind us.

I laid down on my bed and pulled the covers back up around me. I didn't want to adult today. I didn't want to think, or do, or be anything today. I just wanted to lie there and cry, and feel sorry for myself.

There was a knock on my door, and Lane went to the door to intercept. "Not now, Finn. It's not a really good time right now" Lane said, shaking her head vigorously.

"What? Why? Are they banging right now with you in the room!?" He asked with a smile and a raised eyebrow.

"Eww! God no!" she exclaimed in disgust. "Shh, don't say anything, but Logan took off. He's gone. He left this morning and hasn't come back for hours" she explained in a whisper.

Finn's expression turned to confusion and surprise. "Gone!?" he exclaimed, forgetting to keep it quiet.

Lane smacked him and shushed him again. "You suck at this! Now go - PLEASE get out of here - she's inconsolable right now" she pleaded, shutting the door behind him.

I just stared out into space, so numb and upset that I wasn't even able to let myself cry anymore. I felt broken. I felt like nothing inside of me worked anymore. All because of Logan Huntzberger - the love of my life - who has vanished from my life without a trace.

"I know you're both just trying to help, but can I just have some time alone, please?" I whispered.

"Of course, kid" my mom said. She gave me a kiss on the forehead, and then she and Lane walked out.