Broken girl (L.H.)

Why am i such a mistake?

•Katie's pov•
I slowly raised my head to see calum and Luke talking on the other side of the room.

Ashton came and sat down next to me.

"Hey did something bad happen?"

"Does it matter? Luke's gonna leave me anyway."

"Why would he leave you?" I didn't respond I just shrugged and looked back and Luke and calum.

Calum started talking and then Luke's exspression dropped. And he slowly looked back at me with a hurt exspression.

He started to come toward me like he was about to say something..but he didn't. He just shook his head and turned and walked away. Calum followed.

I wanted to follow too and explain but instead I hugged my knees and tried to hide my face. I dint like people to see me cry. If I cry I make them cry.

"A-Ash?"

"Yes princess?"

"C-c-can you drive me back to my place...or it could be yours?"

"Yes I'll drive you back to my place"

"Ok thanks" I said as I hugged him.

We walked down the stairs and out the door.  And got in the car.  The car ride was silent. I looked up at Ashton. He had his eyes glued to the road.

"Katie what do you need..."

"Him, his smile, his eyes, his laughter, his comfort, I need him"

"I know what you mean but I meant is there anything else you need"

"Umm...sleep?"

"You can go to sleep if you want to."

"Ok thank you"

"Thanks for what?"

"Thanks for being here when I need you and thanks for not forcing me to tell you something or any-"

"Your welcome" I smiled up to him as I slowly drifted off to sleep. With in more minutes I felt myself being picked up and carried bridal style.

"Uhh"

"It's ok Katie. We're home"

I closed my eyes again. Not knowing where he was taking me. But I didn't care. I felt safe just right there.

I felt myself being placed on a soft mattress and covers being pulled over me.

"Good night Katie" he said as I felt a kiss on the forehead. I smiled.

What will Luke think of me tomorrow? Nah..I already know. When Ashton left the room I sat up. I looked all around the room and turned on the lamp light.

The room was beautiful. Bright blue with a big window.  I walked into the bathroom that was there.

"Where's a blade?" I said as I was opening drawers.

"Oh well I might as well find a knife tomorrow." I told myself. I walked back to the bed.

"Why am I such a mistake?" I told myself.

"Katie?" Oh crap.

"Yes?"

" this is calum." Well I guess the boys found a way back home. Calum came in.

"Um I was wondering if  you needed something to drink or eat? Or.."

"Or?"

"A friend" I smiled.

"Thanks Cal... I may also need a hug too"

"You could get both of those things from me" I smiled more as he hugged me and was stroking my hair.

"Can you stay with me" I whispered in his ear still hugging.

"I'll always stay with you if you need it"

"Thanks"

"And back to before I walked in..."
Oh great.

"Did you just call yourself a mistake"

"I am a mistake. I make more mistakes than anyone else in this world"

"No don't say that."

"Calum I'm tired. I don't want to talk about this right now."

"Fine but we will talk about it in the morning."

"Ok...WAIT! In the MORNING?!"

"Yeah you, me, and the rest of the guys are gonna have a meet up tomorrow at your house and we're gonna sort this out"

"Oh umm okay"

"Now let's get some sleep" he said. We both laid down. He put his arms around me as if he knew I still needed hug time. I buried my head in his shoulder.