Sunlight

Chapter 36

Justin's P.O.V.

"How do you think you did on your midterm test?"Jake asks me, my friend on the football team. He's been kind enough to let me stay at his place while me and Ariana are on a break.

"I think I did well. Your about to go take a test now for one of your class's aren't you?"I ask him and he nods. "I gotta leave now so I won't be late. I'll see you later"He waves me goodbye before leaving me alone in his small apartment.

All I had was one morning class so the rest of the day I'm free to do whatever I want. It's noon so I should probably get lunch. I don't, Instead I decide to bask in my loneliness like I have been the last two days.

Two whole fucking days have passed since Ariana practically kicked me out of the apartment. I felt my heart shatter the moment she told me she wanted to take a break.

I can't believe I've managed to let lying to her get so far to the point where she now needs time away from me. I drove my own girlfriend away from me all because I was too scared to tell her the truth.

I should have just told her about Sunday night's events when I had to buy Jesse a new stash. I shouldn't have waited to tell her the next morning, risking her finding out before I got to tell her myself.

I feel so terrible for hurting Ariana and putting her through this pain. I know she's only doing what she thinks is right. I would love to go run over to our apartment right now and show her how much I love her but I understand that she needs time to think. I will give her all the time in the world to think, if it means we can still be together.

I really hope she decides to forgive me again and give me another chance. I don't deserve for her to forgive me and for her to give me any more chances because I've had plenty. I love Ariana and I can't imagine not being with her.

We've come this far. It would suck if the past eight months together just get thrown away and forgotten all because of my stupid choices.

I pick up my phone, about to text Ariana but decide against it. I've been tempted so many times the past two days to send her a text or to call her. She told me not to reach her and I have to repsect her wishes.

"Ugghhh"I let out a groan of frustration and pull at my hair. I place my face in my hands and try to erase all the thoughts of Ariana.

Pictures of her run through my mind like a slideshow. Pictures of her smiling, laughing, talking, dancing, us making love, and the list can go on. I can't get her out of my head. Her face has been in embedded in my brain like a constant loop, I can't stop thinking about her.

I hate being away from her for so long. I hate not knowing who she's with or how she's feeling. I'm sure she's not taking this whole break any easier than I am.

"I have to get out of this apartment or I'm gonna go crazy"I say out loud and stand up from my seat on Jake's couch.

I grab my phone and my car keys before heading towards the door. I grab Jake's spare key to the apartment as well and than leave.

I need some fresh air to get my mind away from Ariana. I can't sit in Jake's apartment alone for the rest of the day.

I need to go for a drive.

Ariana's P.O.V.

"I really don't understand the hype for this movie"Lucas tells me as we both watch one of the Harty Potter movies together.

Him and Paige have been keeping me company the past two days as I take a break from Justin.

Paige put off her date with Trevor to be here for me but I urged her to go out with him today, leaving me alone with Lucas. He's been great at keeping my mind away from Justin while we take time apart from each other.