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Josh's pov

I woke up and stared at the clock. 6:02. surprised i got any sleep at all. I felt sick, the thoughts of today. Group therapy.

My problem with group therapy is firstly it doesn't work, secondly i hate how they think that saying how fucked up we all are out loud in a group while everyone stares silently judging you and watching e v e r y move you make, a l w a y s judging. They think its actually works.

I don't mind talking to people but i just rather not because it makes me feel like I'm crazy, well I'm in a mental hospital so they obviously think i am, not my point though. My parents admitted me a few months ago after i started having really bad freak outs so they brought me to a doctor who insisted that some meds would help and thats all but nooo they wanted the top treatment for their joshy, pft im fine! When i came in here the doctors didnt do much as they thought i was okay but after a few days here they got concerned, its now been 2 months. At least i get to go home at weekends but i hate it there and here so either way I'm not happy.

What a dreadful day, Wednesday. Its not quite Monday but not quite Friday. I hate how we cant have electronics here like phones and stuff, it gets really boring but they have instruments here so i play the drums to keep me sane. I was snapped out of my thoughts by a knock at the door "come in" the door was opened and in came mr muntaro although he prefers to be called Steve i don't feel comfortable "why weren't you at breakfast? I thought we discussed this" looked at the clock confused, it read '8:32' "sorry sir i over slept" "should have set an alarm then" "oh um i..yeah..ok" he nodded "remember group therapy at 9" "yes" he just gave me a disapproving look and walked out. What a dick.

I got dressed and brushed my hair which looked shit and i grabbed my deodorant spraying up and leaving for therapy. As i walked down the dark hall with its dirty cream walls-this place had crazy written all over it-literally, martin got hold of the crayons yesterday. I stood outside the group room bracing myself and going in.

As i walked in people stared at me and i felt sudden uneasy feelings from my chest. I found as seat in the circle of brown plastic chairs and i sat down. "Okay guys! Hello as some of you know im Carol and we are going to go around the group and say our name and one thing we like just so everyone gets to know each other" she beamed and the room was silent as always "okay! We will start here" she pointed to Cain sitting next to her and he groaned "im cain, i like trains"

"Josh??hello??" I was snapped out of it by carol kneeling in front of me "yeah??" I looked around confused and everyone stared at me, i knew they were judging me. Well fucking done josh they all think you're a freak, I felt my eyes fill with tears, i didn't know what was wrong with me, why does everyone hate me? They want to hurt me "are you okay?? Carol asked and i knew i was going to lose it, my breathing went all funny like usual-i gasped for air.

I ran out of the room, i had to get away from there, they cant see me cry, nobody can see me cry! I cant be seen again, they hate me.
Carol ran after me and grabbed my shirt but i pulled away "its okay josh" i stopped walking and i collapsed on the ground losing all sort of energy as dizziness took over "its okay let it out" carol cooed "just take deep breath cmon"

Tylers pov

Its been two days since it happened. I didn't die-obviously but i wish i did because now I'm in a mental hospital. How did I survive? Well as i fell i didn't watch for the branched and they slowed me down but the worst part of it all was Zach screaming my name..he found me out here, him of all people..i felt guilty.

I was in hospital for two days, i lost a lot of blood apparently. I thought id just go home and things would go back to the way they were but no it wasnt that simple. When i woke up in hospital zach was sitting by my bed, crying. I didn't mean to hurt him or jay or Maddie or anyone! The doctors convinced mom to send me to this crazy house and She happily did it..she wanted to get rid of me.

Its scary here. Dull creamy walls and ugly carpet, hearing screams from time to time from down the halls. Ive been here an hour and i hated it more than anything. Everyone treated me like i was mental...im not crazy!. I was sitting in this waiting room for the past hour, not knowing what was going to happen! I got here and they just told me to wait here.

I took my phone out of my pocket seeing i had messages from Madison

Mads

Hey i hope you know we are going to really miss you i know its not for long but i hope you are okay in there, call me if you need me, i know zach and jay will miss you even if they act tough-we both know they are big ol softies..anyways, i love you so so much and please get the help you need, if not for you do it for me, for jay for zach, mom, dad, who ever is important to you, you can do it xxx

I couldn't see her but i knew she was upset, i felt myself breaking..how could i put them through so much pain, i didn't want them to be upset "Tyler Joseph?" I looked up and a tall man was standing there "yeah?" "Follow me please" i stood up nervously following the man