Eyes On Me

Chapter 16

Selena Pov

I was on the couch watching tv trying to stay away from the window to see if Justin was home. I tried to call him again during the whole day but he never answered me and I was tired of him ignoring me 

Maybe watching romantic movies wasn't the best idea, I felt like crying every second watching the couples being in love and doing everything they could to be together, why can't I have this? Why can't Justin love me like I love him? 

We have to blame them for giving us an unrealistic expectation of romance. There are so many beautiful moments in movies that we wish we had them too, just to be reminded later that no, we're never gonna get serenaded at 3am under our bedroom window, and no, Prince Charming is definitely not gonna find you after you lost your glass shoe at midnight because you were probably too drunk to walk straight, he's just gonna bang some other hoe at his castel 

I sniffled and picked a tissue from the almost empty box, there were tissues all over the floor it looked like a mess, I was a mess. My heart jumpd as I heard my phone ring, I quickly reached over to the coffee table hoping it was Justin, I felt stupid that I was still hoping to hear his voice, I was still hoping he cared but once I looked at the ID caller I knew my hopes were vain 

"Hey Liz" I tried to smile wiping away the tears like she could see me and that would prevent her to know that I was crying 

"Lena.. don't tell me you're crying again" She said in a warning tone

"N-No, no of course not"

I looked up at the tv and saw the part in Dear John were John says "I finally understood what true love meant...love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be."

And with that I let out a small whimper before bursting into tears, I could hear Liz trying to hush me and comfort me but it was useless I coulnd't stop crying "You see, he fucking loves her,  he's willing to put her happiness before his own, he fucking cares about her" I said loudly like Liz was beside me watching the movie with me but in reality she was just listening on the phone confused 

"What are you talking about?" 

"John" I said crying more while blowing my nose on the tissue "I need to have John" 

"Who's John?" 

"A guy who really loves his girlfriend" I said in a duh tone like it was obvious 

"Listen Lena, you need to stop crying and maybe you can have fun with this Johnny boy" 

"It's John!" I corrected her "And are you even listening to me? He has a girlfriend! I'm not gonna make him cheat on her, I'm not Hailey!" I rolled my eyes at what she suggested 

"Ok, ok, no Johnny for you... John sorry" She said quickly "Anyway I called to know if you were coming to the party tonight" 

"I'm sorry Liz, I really don't feel like going out" I said looking down at my pajamas bottoms 

"Are you really gonna stay up all night crying while watching depressing movies in your pj eating junk food?" 

"Yes, that's exactly what I'm gonna do" 

"I'm not letting you do that, I'll come to your house to get you if I have to" She said with a determined voice 

"Thank you Liz but I really need time to be alone" I smiled, even if we didn't knew each other for a long time it felt good that she cared about me 

"Alright but you shouldn't cry and be hurt for someone who is out doing God knows what with another girl, you should go out and have fun forgetting his cheating ass"