Eyes On Me

Chapter 29

Justin Pov

I guess this is how my life ends 

After all I deserve this, I deserve to die after all the lives I took, after all the bad things I did but most of all I lied to her, I hurt her in a way I never wanted to, that's the only thing that made me feel bad

Did I regret killing? No

Did I regret dealing and using drugs? No

Did I regret being a cold hearted son a bitch? Hell No 

Did I regret hurting the most precious thing I had in my life? Yes 

If I had a choice I wouldn't want anyone else to take my life, she's the only one I'd let do it, no one can kill Justin Bieber, no one ever got close enough to even touch me 

But Selena, oh, she got not only close, she got deep in me, like a disease spreading fast through my veins, my blood, going straight to my heart and never getting out of it

There she was, standing in front of me with shaking hands pointing my gun at me, the same gun that killed so many people to count was about to kill me too, endless tears were streaming down her red puffy face while she was battling with herself on what to do. So I decided for her 

"Kill me Selena! Do it!" I ordered her 

"You ruined us" "Don't touch me" "You're a monster" Those words hurt me more than any bullet could ever do, she could shoot me and I would feel nothing, I was already feeling the biggest pain in my heart and it was for losing her

If I could never be with her again then I didn't want to spend another second living. The pain, the hatred feeling I already had towards this life and world would be so intense, leading me to kill more and more just to try to make me feel better 

At least I will die knowing I'm capable of loving someone. Before her I thought I would never be able to feel emotions, to care about another human but she was my exception

Will she ever know how much I loved her? That I never had the courage to utter those words but they were at the tip of my tongue every day? 

She looked at me in the eyes one last time, before whispering "I'm sorry"

Why was she sorry? I was the bad one, It was all my fault, I ruined everything, I ruined her, transforming an innocent girl who never saw the bad side of this world, forcing her to hold a gun to defend herself 

She was just doing the right thing: ending my life 

A second later she fired, the gun almost flying away in her hands from the force of the bullet getting launched out of it, aiming straight at my face

I loved the familiar burnt smelling in the air, it made me want to take deep breaths to inhale it one last time

It wasn't like in the movies where times stops, the bullet slow down and you start to remember with a flash all the things that happened in your life, No, in an instant the bullet made contact with fresh skin, piercing with full force as nothing could stop his crazy fast ride to take a life 

And he took one 

Blood splattered at the left side of my face and as I supposed before I didn't feel anything 

A loud thud came from behind me and I realized I was still alive, I was still breathing, the lifeless body in the ground wasn't mine 

Turning slightly around I saw it was Brandon, in his right hand he had a gun that was probably aimed at me without me knowing