ALEX

PINK OR BLUE

Everyone is here, from my parents to Chris's side of the family. It was Chris's bright idea to hoard everyone in one place as we announced the sex of our baby. I personally do not want to know.

Even though we are side by side laughing and answering outrageous questions, Chris and I aren't talking. He's pushed me away the moment he discovered that I still talked to Alex.

From time to time I check up on Alex to see if he's doing alright. Alex finally has a place now and visiting him is all that I do. Why can't I let him go? I don't know really. But behind his reckless behavior and playboy demeanor, he is an awesome guy.

I don't think that I will ever understand the mystery that is Alex but as I sit here surrounded by loved ones, I ponder about my past decisions that has led me up to here.

My family of course aren't too fond of my pregnancy announcement to a man they've just met today, especially Andrew, but oddly enough everyone is getting along.

Edith, Elliot, and Molly are here of course. I could not ignore them and skip their invitations. Andrew still has no clue that I hate his girlfriend. And as for Molly, she's a good person. I just want to move forward and be happy. I also invited Kit but he kindly declined.

In his defense, Molly stated that he had a big conference meeting. Well, I'm happy for him. I remember the days when his shop was just some random building down the block. The shop now has been moved to a new facility and Kit's image is on every billboard I drive past.

"You look so beautiful," Molly sings as she rushes to hug me.

I smile and embrace her in return.

Molly smells like cinnamon, her hugs are soft and her smiles are warm. "Look at your baby bump it is so cute," Molly says as she rubs my stomach.

"Ha, cute how adorable," I grin meekly. I'm glad that someone sees my robust stomach to be cute.

Andrew who is nearby just gazes as Molly directs me away from the live crowd and into a corner. Trust me, I am skeptic about the whole thing but I just watch as she hands me a small box.

Why is this woman so nice to me? Does she know something that I don't? But instead of standing there like a complete moron staring off into the distance, I open up the box to find a small wooden sculpture of a cradle.

This brings back memories of when Kit carved a wooden rose for me.

"What's this," I ask her.

"Well my husband and I have been working on giving you an early gift just in case if we miss your baby shower, apparently we might be moving overseas soon," Molly whispers softly.

Eh, I'm not too sure on what to say to her. I know that a thank-you would suffice but I don't want to thank her, I didn't ask her for this. And did she say moving overseas?

"I know that we aren't close friends and that you probably invited me because of Edith and Elliot, but I don't want things to be that way. I want us to be friends."

Oh great, Molly can sense the awkwardness between us.

"We are friends hun, and thank you so much for the gift. Why are you guys moving," I ask her.

I am curious to know.

Molly brushes her hands through her hair and sighs. I don't think that she wants to move.

"It's a long story, we should have like a girls night me, you and the others," she points out to Elliot and Edith.

Eh, I'll have to take a rain check most definitely but I smile at her and agree to plan a girl's night with her.

"I have to get back now," I point at the crowd who waits for Chris and I to cut the cake that will reveal the sex of our baby.

I'll have to admit although Chris and I aren't talking, I rather be next to him instead of sharing a moment with Molly.

"Cut the cake, cut the cake." The crowd is shouting.

I am nervous. I've been working my nerves of accepting the fact that I am carrying a human being in me. But now trying to figure out names I find difficult to do. What if it's a girl, will she turn out crazy like me? What if he's a boy, will he have Chris's eyes?

Chris grabs my hands. Even though we haven't been seeing eye to eye lately, at least he sees my discomfort.

"Thank-you everyone for coming we appreciate it, I know that you guys have been waiting for this moment, so let's not delay any further," Chris shouts as he grabs a plastic knife in order to dig through the first layer of the cake.

I know he's been wanting a girl.

I shut my eyes for a second as he pulls the blade back. Is it going to be blue or pink food coloring to catch my eyes, I don't know but by the sounds of it everyone is screaming with joy.

"Babe," I hear. Chris leans over to kiss my cheek.

"A girl huh," I sigh, the moment I see the pink food coloring.

A little monster me, how great.