ALEX

A TRIP

"Do you have to leave," Andrew questions me as he helps me pick my luggage up and into the trunk of my car.

Yes, I must leave. I can't stay here any longer, I need time to myself.

I am tired of the pity party, I am tired of Chris no longer talking to me. I am just done with everything. I've made up my mind, I've got my sight set on leaving, maybe visit the countryside and rediscover myself.

I am a lost cause. I can't seem to keep any man in my life, and I can't seem to even start a family. I am damaged goods.

"I'll be fine," I smile as I reach over to kiss Andrew on the cheek.

"It doesn't have to be this way, he just needs some time and you just need someone to talk too," Andrew pesters on. He knows that I'm leaving because of my miscarriage. He knows that Chris is not talking to me.

"Look it's just for a few weeks," I smile hoping that'd it would calm his nerves.

"I get that much that you are running away to some excuse of needing a break, but why is he going with you," Andrew rolls his eyes the moment he spots Alex sitting in the passenger seat.

I can tell that Andrew is confused about Alex tagging along. I smile for a second at Andrew and shrug off his question. Alex is only coming along to help me move my things.

"Take care," I say softly.

I don't know why this sounds like a goodbye, but it is.

"Call me when you arrive, or at least message me or something," Andrew persists.

I nod my head yes, as I enter the vehicle.

I can see it in Andrew's eyes that he isn't happy about me disappearing. He's the only one aware of my departure. I've left the apartment this morning, packed half of my things in the middle of the night and stored other things in a public storage. By the time Chris gets home I will be gone.

There is no fixing things. It's been two months and I've done all that I can to communicate with him.

"Are you sure that you want me to come," Alex questions me as he looks at me.

I look over to the passenger side. He's only tagging for a few days, I just need his company.

"Yeah, who is going to help me with my furniture and other things," I ask.

Alex shrugs his shoulders. "I don't know, maybe your boyfriend Chris that you are leaving behind, you know the guy who was the father of your unborn child."

I roll my eyes and tune Alex out. I don't need this right now.

"Look I'm just trying to be a good friend, I know that we've had our ups and down but think realistically here. You are leaving the man who is in love with you behind in order to run away from your problems," he continues on.

I am aware of that Alex, thank you very much.

Maybe I am a coward but what else can I do?

"Are you coming or not, because the shit that you are bringing up right now I do not need," I bite down on my tongue.

Alex says no more. He leans back in his seat and looks out of the window.

This is it, I am going on a trip. A very long trip.