Stay. (Completed!)

Chapter 26: first letter

I sat down as the cold breeze traveled down my spine and opened the first letter.

Dear, Charlotte
I might not be near you right now or even beside you. I might be far away or even maybe sitting next to you while you read this. I might not even be in the world that you're living in but in another world. I'm writing this to tell you everything about how I feel and to say my last goodbyes. I don't want you to blame yourself , I knew their plan. I wanted them to let you go and let you live freely without anymore problems this was the only way. Remember when I told you that I'll always keep you safe even if I'm far away, well in going to keep my promise because my love for you is unconditional. I felt the need to write this because I want you to know that it's not you're fault. I don't want you to blame yourself. I already miss your beautiful green eyes that sparkle every time I look at you and when you blush when I compliment you. I miss your cherry red, soft lips when you kissed my cheek every time you're excited. I miss your beautiful smile that lightened up the world and your beautiful wavy chocolate brown hair that you always had in a high ponytail but most of all I miss your voice. I miss the way I heard you sing when you shower and every time a song comes on in the car. I miss you wrapped in my arms when your scared or sad. I don't want to see you sad. I want you to smile. I know this isn't what you wanted, it's not what I want either but I know you'll find happiness very soon.
I want you to forget the past and everything that happened. I want you to consider me as a regular ex-boyfriend or just a love story that you heard. I miss you Charlie, I miss that soft voice of yours when it called my name. I miss you. I love you. This is for the best. If I'm not beside you at this moment, it's for the best. I've caused you enough problems. I don't regret loving you but I regret dragging you into this. I don't want you to forget the good memories but do me favour and forget the bad ones. I loved you since the first day my eyes landed on you. I still remember how shy you were holding your books and remember that day in art class, I never stopped thinking about you ever since that day.
I hope you'll remember me as your first love and hopefully you'll find someone that will love you as much as I did...
I love you Charlie.. Always did and always will... Forever you'll be in my heart and forever I'll protect you... I love you.
Blake.