Flying Away || Poetry

She Says

I don't need you,
She says.
I don't need your sympathy,
Because that's all it ever was.
You never loved me,
She says.
You poured out all your problems to me, knowing I wouldn't reply, just nod like a windup toy.
You were never there for me,
She says.
I would lie awake for hours
Waiting for your reply,
But it never came.
Too many nights I've been up 'til dawn
Hoping that you would call
I don't need your fake kisses,
She says.
My forehead and cheeks
Have been kissed raw
With your faux love for me
With your fake something for me
Whatever it was, it wasn't love.
I was worth nothing to you,
She says.
You took up so much space in my life.
You even took up so much storage in pictures on my phone
But I only ever had one picture on yours
I only ever had a nod of the head occasionally
A glance, once or twice
Was it something I did?
I loved you,
She says.
And you broke my heart.
I let you take down my walls
And wiggle into my life
But I never got past your surface.
I hated you,
She says.
I hated how every time you smiled,
My heart would melt and I would apologize
Pretending like it was my fault, though I knew it wasn't, just to make you happy
Though it was your fault
You made me less than I was
Made me worth a speck of dirt
Compared to you.
You made me cry,
She says.
So don't come knocking on my door
Telling me you love me
That you're different
Your midnight calls don't help anything
And don't use your key, I beg of you
Because I don't need you
To come and tell me that it'll be okay
That I'm alright
To come and "love" me
Kiss my face all over
To pretend all over again
Because I don't need someone to come and hug me, to tell me I'll be fine,
Especially not you.
Get the heck out of my life,
She says.
Nobody needs your fake pity
Your fake sweet sadness
Your lullabies are old news to me
Worth nothing to me.
You are nobody to me now,
She says.
I've left my broken pieces behind
Who needs their heart anyways?
Especially if it's broken.
Just use your head.
And if I ever see you again
I'll smile politely,
As if I'm meeting a stranger for the first time
And walk the other way
As if I've never known you
As if we've never been
As if you've never said you loved me
As if the world was fine without you anyways.

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