Flying Away || Poetry

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I feel like I'm drowning
Like I can barely keep my head above the water
I can see the silver lining through the crashing waves over me
But I know I can't reach it
I feel like I'm dying of thirst
Like there isn't a drop of water in sight
I want to feel something
I gulp in air hoping to know joy, pain, anything
But know I'll die before I reach water
I feel so close to you
Like you never said goodbye and walked away
When you envelop me in your arms
I'm safe and sound
I feel so far away from you
Like I've never mattered to you
My heart breaks every time you look at me
Those crystal clear eyes
Hard as stone, cold as ice
While mine threaten to spill over
How do I explain this feeling when it's everything at once and yet nothing at all?