Day 11
I've got a lot on my mind lately... I told Tom about my MPD, and he seemed to handle it well? I don't know. I'm not sure how he handled it. He told me something too.
He told me he was gay, and... I don't know how to take it.
I feel like I've dealt like this before. I have some major De'javu almost... It's weird.
It doesn't really help that I have these voices in my head...
Tucker hates Tom's news, Sonja loves it.
Sonja keeps encouraging me to date Tom, and Tucker wants me to stop talking to him... I'm just really split right now... It's hard to deal with it all...
I'm sorry I even said anything.
-Jordan Maron
I threw the book across the room. It hit the wall, leaving a small scratch where it hit.
ʷʰᵃᵗ ʷᵃˢ ᵗʰᵃᵗ fºʳ?
I'm angry.
ʷʰʸ
I don't know...
I got up from my chair, pacing the room.
Small tears poked at the corners of my eyes.
"I'm not gay," I said out loud.
ＤＡＭＮ ＲＩＧＨＴ, ＹＯＵ'ＲＥ ＮＯＴ ＧＡＹ
ʷᵉˡˡ, ʸºᵘ ᵐ'ᵍʰᵗ ᵇᵉ. ʷʰᵃᵗ'ˢ ˢº ʷʳºⁿᵍ ᵃᵇºᵘᵗ ᵇᵉ'ⁿᵍ ᵍᵃʸ?
ＥＶＥＲＹＴＨＩＮＧ ＳＯＮＪ. ＩＴ'Ｓ ＮＯＴ ＮＡＴＵＲＡＬ
ᵇᵘᵗ 'ᵗ'ˢ ˡºᵛᵉ. 'ᵗ ᵈºᵉˢⁿ'ᵗ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵗº ᵇᵉ ⁿᵃᵗᵘʳᵃˡ
"Would you two shut up?" I asked out loud.
ＹＯＵ'ＲＥ ＣＲＡＺＹ, ＴＡＬＫＩＮＧ ＴＯ ＹＯＵＲＳＥＬＦ.
"Stop making fun of me... A lot's going through my head right now."
ＯＢＶＩＯＵＳＬＹ
ᵗᵘͨᵏᵉʳ, ͨᵘᵗ 'ᵗ ºᵘᵗ
"Thank you, Sonj."
My phone buzzed.
ʷʰº 'ˢ 'ᵗ?
I checked the phone screen.
"Tom."
ᵗºᵐ!
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
"But-"
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
"I'm just-"
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
ＹＯＵ'ＲＥ ＮＯＴ ＧＡＹ
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
ＹＯＵ'ＲＥ ＮＯＴ ＧＡＹ
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
ＹＯＵ'ＲＥ ＮＯＴ ＧＡＹ
ＹＯＵ'ＲＥ ＮＯＴ ＧＡＹ
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
ＹＯＵ'ＲＥ ＮＯＴ ＧＡＹ
ＹＯＵ'ＲＥ ＮＯＴ ＧＡＹ
ＩＧＮＯＲＥ ＩＴ
ＹＯＵ'ＲＥ ＮＯＴ ＧＡＹ
ＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹ
ＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹ
ＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹ
ＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ ＧＡＹＮＯ ＳＯＮ ＯＦ ＭＩＮＥ ＩＳ
"SHUT UP!" I yelled. "God damn it, you two are exhausting, I just wish you'd get out of my head!" I shouted, throwing my fist against my bed.
"Get out of my head!" I punched the wall.
"Get out of my head!" I tore pages out of my journal.
"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" I threw my water glass against the kitchen wall.
The glass shards fell against the tile below like small little snowflakes, on a cold winter's day.
I walked towards the mess I had made.
The glass on the floor crunched beneath my bare feet. Pain erupted up my leg, but I ignored it.
"Leave me alone," I whispered.
Dots of red contrasted against the pure, white tiles.
I leaned against the wall I had thrown the glass at.
"Leave me alone."
Sliding down the wall, I sat against the floor. I clenched my eyes shut, cursing at the world.
"leave me alone"
"Hello?"
"Tucker?"
"Sonja?"
"Guys?"
"Don't leave me alone..."
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