Tranquility ✧ Syndisparklez

Dear Jordan,

Dear Jordan,

I know I promised I'd never take over your body again, but I don't have much time. Tucker has me under a tight watch, and he's planning something. I just know it.

He's furious at you, but he's more furious at Tom.

He thinks Tom made you this way. He claims the three of us were a happy family, before you realized you were gay. But Jordan, we know this isn't right.

We were a happy family when you were happy, and you aren't happy now because Tucker isn't himself. Sure, Tucker used to be grumpy and apathetic, but he wasn't like this.

I remember something, Jordan. You need to know it, because it could be the secret to getting our Tucker back.

I've been thinking about what your therapist, Andor, was saying. He said you created us to deal with a traumatic time in your life. I'm going to let you in on a secret, that only Tucker and I know. You created me to spare your innocence and love. You tucked it all into one identity to save for later, so it could never be tainted by the cruel outside world. I don't think I've been doing a very good job at keeping it safe... I'm sorry.

You created Tucker to take away all of your angry, hateful memories of your father's abuse, and hide them. You wanted to forget your past, and I don't blame you. I would want to forget too. Afterall, I'm technically a young version of you. I'm your innocent self, that just wanted to grow old and marry the love of our life. But that was ruined.

Sadly for us, Tucker has latched onto a specific memory, a specific person, and he let it eat away at him. He let it consume him. Tucker was hateful before, because that was his personality. But he was hateful towards other people, who deserved hate.

Remember back when we used to work at Dine at Night? And Tucker wrote that long-ass rant about Kate? He wrote that rant because Kate was flirting with Tom. That was when Tucker was still himself, in fact, he was trying to help you and Tom get together for christ sake!

And after the way Tucker has been treating me lately... I think I finally figured it out.

Tucker hit me Jordan, and he kept referring to me as you. Not the you now; the young you and the love-struck you. He kept yelling at me about James, and threatening me. In that moment I almost wanted to split into multiple personalities to spare the small amount of innocence you had left, but I couldn't. I did my best to protect it, but I don't know. I feel so broken.

Tucker has latched onto the personality of your dad. Obviously, you've probably figured this out by now, but...

I can't be the only one who misses when we were all happy... And when we worked together to keep our life somewhat in order. I miss making butt jokes, and Tucker's rants. I miss your awkward smile and nervousness.

Now we're all just... Sad. All the time, and it's exhausting.

No one deserves that. Not even the worst people in the world. Not even your dad...

We need to be happy again, Jordan.

We need to win Tucker back.

I can hear Tucker fighting to get me out of control, but please be cautious. Tucker- Or, your dad, I guess? I don't know, it's confusing...

Tucker is planning to do something drastic, and I don't know how to stop him. I'm too weak to control your body for long periods of time, and the more depressed you get the weaker you are, all the while, Tucker is getting stronger.

Please be safe.

-Sonj