Tranquility ✧ Syndisparklez

NOT OKAY

NO SON OF MINE IS GAY

NOT GAY
NOT ALLOWED
NOT OKAY
NOT ALLOWED

I WILL FIX HIM

-TUCKER

The dark blurriness cleared from my vision. My journal was sitting in front of me, my pen in my lap.

Was I dreaming? How did I get here?

I carefully flipped through pages, opening to the newest entry.

I don't remember writing this. Tucker's name is signed at the bottom.

"This isn't me," I whispered, tossing the journal in the bottom drawer of the desk, slamming it shut.

Running my fingers through my hair, I tried to remember what happened today.

"Leave me alone."

The words I had once said ran through my head.

"Don't leave me alone."

I immediately looked at the spot where I was once sitting, sobbing on the floor.

"Don't leave me alone."

I haven't heard from the voices. No Sonja, no Tucker.

They must've disappeared.

But that can't be true, Tucker just left an entry.

Why can't I remember it?

Why are they gone?

My thoughts were interrupted by a notification on my phone.

TWITCH: ProSyndicate is currently live!

I opened my laptop lid, tuning in to the stream.

Tom was talking to the camera, commenting on his game. The screen was filled with little block people, in a colorful, box world.

"Welcome, CaptainSp-" Tom stopped in his tracks, looking at something off screen. Probably his second monitor. "Welcome, CaptainSparklez to the stream..."

My fingers danced across my keyboard.

"Hey."

A couple of seconds passed, until Tom finally looked over.

No response.

"Tom?"

I watched him shift in his seat, observing the chat.

My Skype icon lit up.

Tom: So are you gonna join the Skype call, or nah?

I quickly hit accept, but when the call started, I didn't know what to say.

"Hey," Tom mumbled.

"H-Hi, Tom can we-"

"Welcome CaptainSparklez to the Twitch stream, everybody," Tom exclaimed, in his cheery voice.

"Oh, uh, hey... guys."

"You wanna join the server?" Tom asked, sending me an IP in the Skype chat.

"I don't even have this game."

"You don't have Minecraft?"

"No, never heard of it," I smiled, laughing at the fact Tom got so defensive over a stupid game.

"You gotta download it, it's sick."

"Yeah..."

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Sonja?

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Sonja!

Hello?

Please don't leave me again.

Please.

Sonja...

"Hello? Earth to Jordan?"

"Yeah... Uh-Sorry."

"I sent you a link to the website, you can download it there if you want," Tom explained.

"Oh, okay..." I mumbled, trying to sort through my brain.

I checked the chat.

"Yay, Jordan and Tom!"

"Senpai has arrived!"

"Yo Sparklez."

I opened Skype, typing as fast as I could. My heart was beating out of my chest, thoughts racing through my mind.

I need to see Tom.

Jordan: Listen, can I come over?

I need to see you.

Please.

Tom: Like, right now?

Jordan: Yes. Please?

Tom: Okay... Drive safe though.