Invisible 2 (H.S. AU)

Chapter 18

Victoria's P.O.V

While Harry and I ate breakfast, I couldn't help but think about what just happened. Harry was sitting on the other end of the couch, blankly staring at the T.V. Like... wasn't he fazed at all by what just happened...? We just.... Did.... That. Did it not affect him at all?

Or maybe this was how it should be, do something sexual, and then just go back to normal. I felt so... open. Exposed. Freaked out but also calm. I wasn't sure what to do.

I felt awkward.

"What's wrong love?" Harry asked me, I looked over at him and he was staring at me with soft eyes. They held some emotion in them that I couldn't place quite right.

"What do you mean?" I asked, too embarrassed to bring up what was on my mind.

"You've been pushing the same glob of eggs around on your plate for ten minutes," He smiled, "and you're so far away. Come here." He lifted one arm, beckoning me to come closer.

Relieved, I set my plate down, knowing I wouldn't eat anymore and scooted over into his warm embrace.

"Did I hurt you?" He asked, "Do you feel uncomfortable around me now? I hope I didn't push you into something you weren't ready for. I didn't mean-"

"No, it's not that. You didn't hurt me." I cut him off.

"Then what...?"

"You just seem so calm. Like it happened and then... you got distant." I hid my face in the crook of his neck, like I did every time I was confessing something embarrassing. "Did you not like it? Regret it or anything? It's embarrassing."

He remained quiet and I resisted the urge to look him in the face as I suck farther into the couch. Why can't a hole just swallow me up and take me away from here?

Harry's P.O.V

Her words hung in the air as I sat there dumbfounded. She thought I didn't like it? Why the hell wouldn't I like watching her squirm and moan under my touch. I fucking loved it. What would make her think differently?

Truthfully, I didn't mean to pull away from her. Well, kinda. But for the right reasons though.

One thing being that when me and my ex, who shall not be named, did anything, we didn't talk about it afterwards. As a matter of fact, we barely even touched. We were basically just fuck-buddies, so once we got our fix of each other, we'd fall asleep on opposite sides of the bed. Sometimes we would pass out before we even got dressed. Occasionally, we would catch the other person moving over to cuddle, but we always caught ourselves and moved back over to our sides of the bed. I almost never had the desire to touch her when she wasn't giving me some form of pleasure, and sometimes I didn't even want to touch her then.

I guess I had just assumed Victoria would be the same way. I should have known better.

"I guess I'm just not used to talking about sexual things after they happened. I never have before." I decided to leave out the details because I didn't think she would want to know who I was thinking about at the moment.

The other reason I stayed away from her was because I was so damn turned on by watching her that I couldn't see straight and I didn't want to hold her down and fuck her till we were both sore. I knew she wasn't ready for that yet. I didn't think I was either, I wanted to keep her as pure as I could for as long as I could.

This I thought would be okay to tell her.

She remained quiet, her head still buried in my neck. I loved when she did that.

For whatever reason, I felt embarrassed to tell her why I stayed away. What can I say? I have a weakness for beautiful women.

I laughed, nervous of her reaction. "And, to tell you the truth, I needed to stay away and calm down." I nudged her head out from my shoulder to look her in the eyes. She lifted her head reluctantly and I touched my nose to hers, to make sure I held her eyes. "You were just being so sexy, I needed to stay away, or we wouldn't have left that bedroom," He smiled. "I didn't think you were ready for me to fuck you silly yet." I half-joked.

To my surprise, she laughed, but I could tell she wasn't really sure how to react to what I just told her.

"I'm not sexy," She said, as I had a feeling she would.

"Oh baby, you have no idea the appeal you have." I laughed, sad that she didn't know what she did to me every day. "I love you, my beautiful girl." I smiled.

Victoria's P.O.V

I looked into his eye and saw nothing but love and admiration for me, his face glowed with it.

Even though I didn't believe him, I closed my eyes and smiled, too shy to look him in the eyes. I moved my face closer to his so our eyes weren't level anymore. I know he could see the disagreement in my face, but he said nothing. I admired him for that.

"I'll tell you how beautiful you are every day if that's what it takes. One day you will believe me." He seemed too over confident about that.

I sheepishly smiled and turned my head away from him.

He turned my head back with one of his fingers and kissed my lips softly.

"I need to get home," I reminded him.

"I know," He sighed. "Come on, lets go."