Metaphorically, I'm a Whore... // Tyler Joseph

Chapter Twenty Five.

After breakfast, we all left the diner with our stomachs full to the brim with food. Well, most of us did. I didn't eat much, I couldn't, not with Tyler and Jenna being all over each other right in front of me. I couldn't concentrate on anything else, I couldn't bring my mind to focus on myself. All I could do was watch her and simply wish that was me.
Was this me admitting to liking Tyler? Definitely. Was I going to tell him anytime soon? Of course I wasn't.

"Josh, we are gonna go explore London for a while, you guys wanna come with?" Tyler spoke up, knocking me out of my thoughts.
I winced as I waited for Josh to drag me along with them, I was about to pray for him to say no, but to my surprise, he beat me to it.
"No thanks, I think I'm gonna hang out with Amanda for a while. You guys have fun!" He told him simply. I was shocked. Josh not going somewhere with Tyler? This was insane! They're like two peas in a pod!
Tyler stood for a while, lowering his eyebrows into a slight frown, he shot a look at Josh and then me and then back to Josh. I felt so uncomfortable.
"Okay, see you." Tyler stated and with that he took a firm hold of Jenna's hand and I watched in sorrow as they strolled off together.

Josh and I decided to head to my house seeing as I now lived alone so it was nice to have some company for once. Of course my mum came to visit, but she worked quite a bit so I barely saw her.
Josh sat on the end of my bed facing me whilst I leaned against my headboard. I sighed to myself and Josh caught onto my bad mood.
"What's up dude?" He asked me.
I shook my head and stared up at my ceiling. I had to tell someone didn't I?
"It's Tyler." I stated.
Josh nodded, encouraging me to elaborate on my statement.
"I guess...I guess I'm upset. I'm upset that he's found someone else. I'm upset that the time we shared at Warped meant nothing to him. I'm upset that all I was to him was a fan. And I'm upset that the girl he is dating is perfect for him, and definitely a lot better than I am."
With this, my eyes began to water, I rapidly blinked through the tears, there was no way I was gonna let Josh see me cry.
Josh crawled over to me and sat beside me, pulling me into his side, he placed an arm around me and stroked my shoulder in comfort.
"You have no reason to worry Amanda. Their relationship is on the verge of toxic. They aren't stable at all, and the way they act around each other all depends on how they are feeling that day. Trust me." He explained reassuringly.

"And how do you know that? And why would he stay?" I questioned.

"Well I know he stays because she has money. Lots of it. Heck, she was the one who provided us with the funding to get our equipment and to perform in these venues. It's crazy. She doesn't provide as much anymore, but back when we were just a local band, she did it a lot. It didn't really make me happy that she was doing it, I always felt like it was cheating in a way. I wanted to make it by myself, I wanted Tyler and I to help each other make it, but he insisted, he wouldn't let me refuse her help. So I went along with it."

I gasped at his explanation, I was shocked that Jenna was so willing to provide for the band as much as she did.

"Why would she do that?" I asked, truly fascinated by her persistence.

"For Tyler. She has always been romantically interested in him. He hasn't ever returned her interest, but for some reason, within this last year he has decided to give it a try. I'm not sure why, he wouldn't tell me much, he just went on to say 'it's nice', I can tell he doesn't really mean it though. I can tell he isn't happy, and I would most definitely prefer if he was dating you."

My eyes widened once more, Josh wanted me to be with Tyler? This was all so crazy.

If only Tyler felt the same.