Metaphorically, I'm a Whore... // Tyler Joseph

Chapter Forty Four.

One week later.

I sat by myself on the couch in Josh's apartment. Staring at the wall as I continuously took my bottom lip between my teeth and chewed for a couple of seconds before releasing and repeating the cycle over again.
It was all I could do. I was always told off by Tyler for biting my lip, but at the same time I continued to do it because A, it relieved me from stress, and B, I knew he found it sexy.
But now I had only the first reason to do it. And boy did I do it more than ever now.

"Okay!" I heard Josh chime as he entered the living room.
"I have salted popcorn, sweet popcorn, and buttered, just in case you really wanted to spice it up!" He announced as he placed the three bowls on the table and sat down beside me.
I nodded and let out a faint, slightly amused murmur. I continued to stare at the wall as I did so.
I saw Josh come into my line of sight. He looked at the wall, then looked at me, then back at the wall.
"So, what's on the wall right now? Anything interesting?" He chuckled.
I broke my focus from the wall and looked down at my hands as I twiddled my thumbs.
"Amanda?" Josh spoke.
I looked at him slowly.
"How are you doing?" He asked, resting his hand on my knee.
I shrugged at his question. How was I doing? I was staring at walls, chewing my lip and I had lost all sense of emotion, other than dreaded sadness of course.
"Fine." I simply answered.
Josh frowned at me and withdrew his hand.
"Maybe some TV?" He suggested as he grabbed the remote and turned on the set.

"Welcome to today's news. More photos have emerged of the newly reunited couple Tyler Joseph and Jenna Black. Here we can see them taking a long walk down the street together, arm in arm. The couple are reported to be very happy in being back together and they promise us that nothing will ever tear them apart again. Only time will tell."

I went back to staring at the wall as the report finished, only this time, accompanied with me biting my lip, tears also fell from my eyes, one by one.
Josh quickly switched off the TV and brought me into a warm hug. He sat there patiently as I just cried into him. There was nothing else I could bring myself to do but cry. It was all I had known lately. And yes I know, I'm the one that left him, I'm the one that ended it, but he chose her, and there was nothing I could do about it.

Later that evening, I sat in bed and began to scroll through Twitter, I had to see if anything else had been reported on Tyler and Jenna.
As I scrolled through, I read each tweet one by one.

"My faves are back together at last!👏🏻"
"They look so good together!!😻"
"Amanda who?"
"I much prefer Tyler and Jenna. They suit so well."
"Tyler was waaaaaay too good for Amanda anyways."

I locked my phone and threw it away from me, pulling the duvet over my head, I surrounded myself in darkness as my head hit the pillow.

A couple minutes later, I heard my bedroom door open.
"Amanda. You can't hide from the world forever." Josh stated as he sat beside me, rubbing my duvet protected back.
"I can too." I stated.
Josh pulled the covers off of me and I squinted at the sudden reveal of the light from my bedroom light.
"What can I do Josh? He's with her now. All of the fans are saying they prefer him being with her so what's the use? How can I like myself when the fans don't even like me?"
"You're being silly. I like you. You're better, trust me. She wasn't good for him then and she certainly isn't good for him now." He replied.
"Listen." He added, "I have a plan."
I slowly lifted my head to look at him, "I'm listening."
"Well. You're living with me now, right?" He asked. I nodded with slight confusion.
"Well, what if we are getting so close with each other because we now live together, what if we are getting so close that we are attracted to each other?" He asked.
"You mean like, pretend to be into each other? To get back at Tyler?" I asked.
"Exactly."
"But Josh, we both know how Tyler got last time he saw us getting close, I don't want you guys to not be friends again." I frowned.
"Trust me. It will be worth it. You guys are so good together and Tyler needs to realise that. It will work, I promise."

"Okay. Let's do it."