Metaphorically, I'm a Whore... // Tyler Joseph

Chapter Thirty Two.

Tuesday rolled around soon enough and I was sprawled out on my couch with a large glass of wine in my hand and the TV remote in the other. I was in my pj bottoms and a vest top. My hair tied up into a high pony tail and my face completely stripped of make up.
I was going to watch the APMAS regardless, it was just a coincidence that the boys were now attending and performing.

I watched as my favourite artists all walked the red carpet. I squealed when I saw Blink-182 and Brendon Urie and many others as they strolled towards the venue. My inner fan girl was coming out and who was I to hide it? I lived alone after all.
A few minutes later, Josh appears on the red carpet in a black suit with a red shirt. His hair now died a vibrant yellow. I smiled as I saw him. He looked great. But where was Tyler?
My thought was soon answered as Tyler followed behind Josh, with Jenna, draped over him, smiling at all of the photographers that she could to make sure that she was getting her recognition.
I scoffed loudly at the sight on the TV, talking a large gulp of wine from my glass.
I could never understand Tyler. How could he act that way with me at the venue and still be draped around her? Honestly, it baffled me.

A few awards in and I was now slightly intoxicated. Every time I saw Tyler with Jenna it just made me want to drink more to forget him. Forget him and all of the confusion he had put me through for all this time.
The boys then took to the stage to accept an award they had won and I clapped my hand slowly on my thigh as I took another sip from my glass.
"We want to thank all of our fans for voting for us, you guys are great." Josh spoken nervously as he accepted the award.
I cheered loudly at the TV as Josh spoke to the crowd.
"We love you all, thank you for being so supportive." Tyler added.
"We love you all!!" I mimicked him in a squeaky voice, blowing a raspberry at the TV.
"Liar." I then stated in response.

A few moments later, Tyler and Josh took to the stage to perform.
To my surprise they performed a slow song.
"Wise men say, only fools rush in.." Tyler began to sing.
I groaned loudly and got up from the couch, heading over to the kitchen across from the living room. There was no way I was going to sit and listen to this song when I knew for a fact it was aimed at Jenna. I also felt sorry for Josh as he couldn't drum to his full potential with this song. It was almost like Tyler was trying to get back at both of us for what he saw in the bus, even though it was clear that nothing had happened between us.

I continued to listen to the performance from the kitchen as I poured myself another glass of wine.
As the song came to an end, I started to down the liquid faster and faster, having to refill my glass once more.
As I poured the wine into my glass, I heard the boys being interviewed.
"So Tyler, you sang beautifully tonight.." the interviewer began.
I rolled my eyes at her statement.
"I'm right to assume that that lovely song was performed tonight for your girlfriend Jenna, am I right Tyler?"
"Well actually, I'm afraid you'd be quite wrong this time." Tyler answered honestly.
My eyes widened at his comment and I spat a little bit of my drink out that I was now taking a sip from.
"Shortly after the performed, Jenna ended our relationship. I admitted to her that the song I performed tonight was dedicated to a lovely girl I know. Her name is Amanda."
I froze in shock and stared at the TV with my eyes wide and my mouth open.
A loud scream erupted from within me and I repeatedly cursed at the TV.

I had no idea what had just happened, and because of my now drunken state, I had no idea if it was real or not.