Shikamaru X Reader

Last exam

I get the the arena where the last exam is being held. It turns out the guy who was going to fight Temari died so shikamaru had to fight her and I have to fight the winner of their round after all the other rounds. Lily and Jiraiya were in the crowd watching. Everyone fought and did amazing but we had to wait for Sasuke to show up in that time a man was talking to Jiraiya and he left 'probably another mission' I thought and was right by the time Sasuke shows up Jiraiya isn't in the village anymore. During the match between Sasuke and Gaara a attack on the leaf village happened. 'Why is this happening as I help the black ops open the box thingy Lily ran after Sasuke and Gaara to help as I saw what she was doing I Summoned shadow "make sure Lily is safe no matter what you hear me" I yelled at him and he jumps away to find Lily I look back at the box eventually I get in but for some reason no one else could. I walked towards where all the fighting was. I saw  Orochimaru his arms are all red and dead looking. "Ok y/n it's time to go." He said I look at him then the hokage's dead body on the ground "I-I think I'll stay behind for a couple days." I said a little shaken by the sight. Orochimaru just smiled a little nods and has kabuto take him away. The force field thing dropped and people came in to see what happened only to find their beloved hokage died. I walked a way to find Lily I saw shadow walking to me with his tail between his legs and a limp Lily on his back. I wait for him to come to me as I drop to my knees and take her off his back I checked for a pulse but nothing "S-she's dead." I state and cry my eyes out I yell at shadow " I thought I told you to protect her! What happened?" I sniffed "she was fighting a sand ninja when I found her it was too late he slashed her stomach before I could do anything." He said looking down in shame 'i should of been there.' Shadow poofs away and it starts raining. I sat there crying in the rain holding my died sister 'it should have been me' I thought