Shikamaru X Reader

When I Leave

Y/n Pov 

I woke Up Before Shika did. I carefully got out of bed so I wouldn't wake him up. I Packed a bag with all my money, some clothes, and a Picture of Lilly, Jiraiya, and I at the training grounds. I was about to leave but before I did I kissed Shika on the forehead and jumped out the window. I got to the gates of the village when Gaara jumps in fount of me making me stop. " Where are you going?" He asked I looked him in the eyes he looks soo angry yet worried."I'm going out I'll eventually come back." I lied with the best smile I could make. I could tell that Gaara could see through my lie so I run so fast he didn't have time to react. I was gone by the time he realized what happened. I traveled for two days and made it to Orochimaru's hideout or at least one of them. For some reason he was waiting for me out side. He looks at me then smiles at me it's weird. He waves me over to him and I walk over "y/n you made it, I'm glad you're here I need you to come with me we're going to find lady Tsunade so she can heal my arms." he said and he started walking with  Kabuto following 'when did he get here?' i followed and I wasn't sure where we were but it was a pretty cool village. For some reason I thought I saw Jiraiya walking with Naruto weird. we kept walking until we found this really pretty lady with blond hair and for some reason really REALLY big boobs. I wasn't pay much attention but Orochimaru and what i think is Lady Tsunade were fighting and then they talked for a bit and next thing i know Jiraiya really was there with Naruto and hey were all fighting next thing I now there was a big snake and a bug snail. I ended up On the snake and as Kabuto and Naruto fight Orochimaru told me to take off my necklace and so I did. I transformed Into my half demon form and i just stood there Kabuto got on the snake and before we left Orochimaru looked at me and said "hold them off and meet us back at my base later." he said he pushed me off the snake and left as i was falling when I hit the ground I lost control of my self my silver hair turned black and my eyes were also black. I ran at Jiraiya and tried to bit him on the neck. He blocked so I bit him on the are, I could taste his blood in my mouth i liked it but I don't want to hurt him. Tsunade was going to hit me but Jiraiya wouldn't let her  " don't hit her it will only make things worse." he said then turns to me. I start crying my tears felt thicker than usual I looked into Jiraiya's eyes I could see something It kinda looked like me but it couldn't it was a monster and it looked like it was crying blood. I realized it was me I was the monster in the reflation I was the one hurting him but I didn't want to. It was hard but I tried to open my mouth and let go of him when I did I was still thirsty for blood and I needed more I backed away fighting the urge and it hurt me. it felt impossible to hold back i struggled to make some hand sighs and when I finished lightning came from the sky and hit me knocking me out.