I miss him so much. The memories and everything in between.
I missed how he tells me he loves me.
I missed how he texts me goodmorning and goodnight. And how he patiently waits for me everyday to walk me home safely.
I miss how he hugs me tight and kisses me passionately.
I miss his warm hugs whenever I'm nervous.
I miss the way he smiles and looks at me.
I miss the way he treated me like a Queen.
I miss his sweet surprises that never failed to make me smile.
I miss the way he buys me food whenever I say I'm hungry.
I miss the way we hold hands while walking around.
I miss our unexpected dates.
I miss playing with his hands and his hair.
I miss hugging him and smelling his scent.
I miss making videos and taking a lot of selfies with him.
I miss how he comforts me whenever I am down.
I miss his laugh.
I miss the way he holds me. The way he kisses my hand and the way he looks at me saying he loves me, sincerely.
I miss how we argue and then next thing we know, were hugging and laughing.
I miss his cute texts and our late night calls.
I miss the way he tells me he misses me.
His voice, his sense of humor. His jokes, his stories, eveything.
Everything in between us.
I remember every single detail of the days that we were together. It felt like I was dreaming but then I woke up and realized... He's not mine anymore.
And here I am, left alone, crying, hurting again and again. How can he be like that? He wasn't the guy whom I loved before. I know he loves me but why does he seemed like he don't even?
I'm so tired of waiting and hoping that he'll ever come back when truth is, he wouldn't. He found someone new. It hurts like hell. It's been killing me every single day knowing that he's not mine and I'm not his.
I hope he is happy. Even when I'm not the reason of his happiness anymore. Even though he've cause me too much pain, I still hope for his best.
I love him still. And dreaming of us together, is my way of easing the pain. Atleast in my dreams, we were together. Atleast in my dreams, he loves me. Atleast in my dreams, I'm happy. And I wouldn't want to wake up anymore.
Written by: Me
