Loving you

Chapter 34

Alice's Pov:

As i say her name i can see him tense up. I feel guilty for asking him now. She probably did something really bad to him and i just had to ask. I hold his hand and look into his eyes.
"Hey um if you don't want to talk about her" I say
"She was my first love" he says
Angela..she was his first love.. I wonder what happened to her.
"Oh..what-" i didn't finish my sentence because i heard Adriano sigh.
"Its okay if you don't want to talk about it now"
"No...no... i knew this would come sooner or later. I was 7 and she was 4, Her name was Angela Adamo. Beautiful little girl, I was so little at the time but i knew i loved her. She was so full of life, we were best friends"
"What happened to her?" I ask curiously
"No one has seen her over 10 years. When she was going to my house to play and someone kidnapped her out of the blue. I waited for her every day until Dante came into my house and starting arguing with my dad. Me,Alonzo, and everyone else even Alessandra was mourning for her. Now we don't even know if she's dead or alive. He thinks we took her and killed her" he said while looking at the grass.

I feel bad now for asking him. Angela..she was his first love. I suddenly feel a pang of jealousy but mostly sadness because who could do such a thing to a little girl. I don't think anyone should go through that especially a child. Who would be cold enough to take a innocent child from their parents? Is Adriano still in love with her? Is he still searching for her? Its like Adriano could read my mind
"We tried looking for her but met a dead end. Because this I changed, no more Angela then no more Adriano. Thats what I always thought until.... You came into my life Alice. My reason for living was my father's legacy and work. I was like a living machine never stopped working, I was always busy with work 24/7 but now I have a new reason for living. Your my reason I'm still living through this. You complete me" he said
He said such sweet words to me. I get closer to him and put my head on his shoulder.
"You also complete me Adriano" I say to him
"I love you Alice" he says as he kisses my forehead and caressing my hair
"I love you too Adriano"
"So you told me about that guy who did a huge gesture to get you in high school. Did anyone else ever tried?"
"Yeah but I always turned them down. The whole concept of dating in high school was kind of stupid to me, but I was a sucker for romance. I loved the thought about love. I would sometimes think about my future husband and how he would treat me with love" i say while remembering myself in high school. I always watched romantic movies and novels. They made me happy, thinking about my future husband about my future kids.
"Well I hope I can be that man for you someday " what he said caught me off guard. I didn't know what to say so i just smiled and kissed his cheek. There's one thing I'm scared about...i should ask him
"Adriano, what happens if you find Angela?" I can see him struggling in his mind.
"Im sorry I shouldn't have asked"
"Honestly Alice I don't know what will happen when or if i find her"

He still loves her...I think its cute he still loves her but I cant help but feel jealous. I still hope that they find her though. No one deserves to go through that experience, being taken away from your family then missing for 15 years. Its sad and crazy, I cant believe a human being could do this to a child. If she was 7 she must be the same age as me. Maybe i could be friends with her. Why am i thinking this far? I sigh
"Whats wrong?" I guess he realized me sighing
"Nothing I'm just sleepy" i lie
"Do you want to go home?"
"No no its okay" i lay on the grass and close my eyes
"What are you doing?"
"Shhhh just lay here with me" i say
"Alice, I want to ask you"
"Go ahead" i say to him
"What's your um *cough* dream guy like?"
I start to giggle "Do you really want to know?"
"Yes"
"All righty just don't laugh. You know Christian grey right?" I shyly say
"Yes?" He says in an almost questionable tone
"He's my dream guy without the um you know what"
"What? He's your dream guy? How?!" He says shocked
"Well if you look at Christian without the you know what. He is really romantic and he just doesn't admit it, he's modest and the thing I love most is that he was willing to change for the one person he loved. I alway's thought I would find my Christian Grey somewhere somehow. I want a guy who look's at me like I'm the only girl in the world for him. I want him to think that I am his world. I would do the same for that guy as well, I would his Ana to his Christian"
"Wow that was...really wow" I chuckle at his response