Loving you

Chapter 50

Alice's Pov:
I pick myself up from the bed and begin to scan the room, I force myself to think I'll be fine. I take a deep breath and let it out, I hold back the tears that are for Adriano. Adriano should be the one I'm marrying not Nick. I want to live though, I will live for Adriano. I am his and he is mine. I have to believe that someday we will be together and be at peace. The dream that can never be, I shake that thought out of my mind. You have to be strong Alice, for yourself and him.

The dress that was hanged on my door looked beautiful but it gave me a wretched feeling in my stomach, the man who will be on the other side will not be Adriano Morreti but Nicholas Ivanov. Nicholas is a great guy but I don't love him, I will not be married to him because of love. I hate that, I don't hate him though.

Over the time the I've spend with him he has been a gentleman, even though he has betrayed my trust before, he has regretted it and asked for my forgiveness. I get up and walk to the dresser to do my make up. I swipe Dark red lipstick across my lips, black eyeliner on my eyes and mascara, I put my hair into a bun and pin it with a beautiful diamond hair clip. I strip myself out of my clothes and step into my white dress. There was a knock on the door and I walked to open it. To my surprise it was Dmitri, my heart beats faster in fear. I step back and he walks in then closes the door.
"You look beautiful Alice, you really are something" he says while licking his lips, gross. A sickening feeling comes from my stomach
"What do you want Dmitri? Haven't you already done enough, just please leave me alone" I say and he laughs
"I don't think I've done enough to you Italian whore. You're suffering causes me joy and I want you to suffer more" He says and grabs my jaw
"Dmitri please...." I beg because I'm tired of all that has happened
"Begging are we? What happened to the fierce and bold Alice McKenzie? Where that spark of fire!" He laughs
"Dmitri get out, I don't want you here!" I shout
"AH! There she is, little Alice trying to be the owner in the cage of dogs . New flash baby, other way around. I'm the owner and you are the puppy, obey me you get a treat" He smirks
"And if I don't?" I say gritting my teeth
"Then I hope God blesses you, have mercy on your soul" He grabs my arm forcefully and I get scared then try to pull it away from him
"You will be an Ivanov but the Italian blood runs in your veins which disgusts me! You are marrying into this family but you are and always will bean Italian scum" He spats at me while looking intensely into my eyes. He throws my arm back to me with force and I whimper.

Dmitri opens the door and slams it. Again I can't cry, but I break down on the floor staring blankly at the door. I want to cry so badly, I need Adriano. I love him so much, he's my soulmate. I want him yo be here telling me everything will be okay, I miss his touch, his kiss, his warmth. I miss everything about him. The door opens again and a tall person who is very muscular
"You come with me" He says with a very thick Russian accent. I walk towards him and follows his orders, I walk behind him with my head hanged low.
"I'm feel sorry for you Ms" He says
"Thank you...but it's not your fault, no need to say sorry" I say in a low voice but my eyes still staring at the ground
"I feel bad for you Ms, you are marrying a cruel man" He says in sorrow tone
"Nicholas is not cruel...he is pretty nice to me..." I reply
"I'm so sorry Ms" He says and stops in front of a door where I saw a tall old man standing wearing a suit. I gulp and hide my fear, I look at the muscular guy and he tell me to go to him.

I approach the old man and he smiles at me with pity, I wonder who he is? I open my mouth to talk but he beats me to it
"Angela you look beautiful, I'm so sorry for what has happened I wish I could help but my son and daughter...they are my children I will give them what they want. I can only hope that god may bless your soul" He's Nick's dad...
"You...." I say with hatred
"Yes I took you when you were a baby... I have done terrible things in my life but taking you was the worst. I did try to find you the best family for you, I kept tabs on you but I got sloppy and didn't see you go to Adriano. I'm sorry Alice, I wish you happiness with my son" He says
"Sir, I want to ask if this is the truth you are stating. Tell me why? Why would you take an innocent child out of the arms of her father then have the audacity to say sorry? What if someone took your daughter? What if you have been separated from her for years and not knowing if she was alive or dead? Please Sir do not say sorry unless you can turn back time and make me be with my Father again" I spat at him
"Okay Alice or Angela, whoever you want to be called. Today is a special day and I am the one to walk you down the aisle. Call me dad" He says as he offers me his arm to hold
"No and why would I call you dad? You don't have the right to be called a dad by anyone after what you did to me and my family"
"I walk you down the aisle or the guard does. Either way you are going to walk down that aisle and marry my son!" He raises his voice which makes me flinch a bit but I'm not scared
"I want to ask you Alexei" I say changing the topic
"Please do"
"Why can't I remember anything? Shouldn't I have memories of you taking me? Of my family?" I ask him
"When you were a child, you were so gullible. Children are always gullible, I remember what happened. I gave you some food and you ate but after that I hit you in the head and then you ended up with a brain trauma then guess what, little baby Angela became Alice Mckenzie. Simple as that" He laughs
"You sicko! Who hits a child! You coward! You are a disgusting human being!" I scream at him, how can this man infront of me be sorry for what he did but now is shouting at me?!
"Raise your voice again to me Alice and you will know the consequences. I am already holding my temper with you and I want to except you as my daughter in-law" He says
"Alexei you will never be my father in law, my blood is the Adamo's and you are an Ivanov. The blood that runs through my veins are stronger than any Ivanov, your family is a mess and I will never except this family as mine"
"Very well then, I shall not get mad at you Alice because it is your wedding day which I could care less about but it is my sons and that is what is important to me. I try to make amends with you but you seem you do not want to" He says, Damn right I don't!
"I am walking down that aisle by myself with no one escorting me" I inform him and his face turns sour
"Alice you have to trust me now and I advice you to have me as an ally not as an enemy" He says
"Really? Why is that?" I ask him
"I can offer you my protection from him if he ever hurts you" He says
"Why do you even want to get along with me?! There's nothing to gain from it..." I ask suspicious what his intentions are
"Well-" He stops talking when music starts playing

The doors open and I look at him and he does the same but smiles and offers his arm to me again. For some reason I take it, but with a bad feeling in my gut. I take a deep breath and see only the infamous Ivanov's. Only their inner circle, guards guarding the place though. I walk closer and closer to Nick and see Cecilia passes me a smile. Where's Adriano? Maybe...He...doesn't really think I'm Angela...Maybe he doesn't love me. I feel a tear escape my eye and fall down my face. I walk closer to the aisle and my face turns pale. All the color from my skin drains, Why? Why....why....WHY?! I turn back but Alexei stops me. His arm grips tighter into mine. He smiles at me and whispers in my ear
"Every guard here has a clear shot on you sweetheart, try and run. I would love to see what will happen" He says

These people are fucking crazy!!! I proceed to walk to him with a heavy heart. I feel like throwing up, the feeling of my stomach turning is horrible. What happened to him! Where is he? Questions run through my mind before I knew it I was facing him. My veil was lifted and he hands me to him... I gulp and look him right in the eyes.
"We are gathered here today to witness these two people be bonded for life" bonded for life? That sentence makes me just want to run away from reality
"So let's get on with it shall we. Alice Mckenzie that was formally known as Angela Marie Adamo, do you take Dmitri Alexeevich Ivanov to be your husband?"
I hesitate and look around and see Cecilia give me a death glare while Alexei points at a guard who was pointing a gun at me from the balcony.
"I-I-I" I stutter and see Dmitri get more and more angry

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Hi guys!!!
I'm am so sorry I haven't updated in months! I'm such a bad person:( but I'm here now and I'm back!!!! Next chapter is pretty intense so I will publish it next week, it's going to be very long.... I'm so sorry though guy's for being absent for a long time.... But I'm back! Happy reading guys!!