Mercy; Shawn Mendes

37. Home

"I needed my mom. I needed to be home but I realized it wasn't my home anymore."

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Two days later...

Veronica.

I got to my dads the day everything happened. I told him that Shawn and I 'broke up'. I stayed in bed all day and told him I wanted to go home. I didn't want to be where he could find me, I wanted my mom.

I wanted to be miles away from Shawn. My dad tried to convince me to stay because he hardly sees me. I would more than anything but I just couldn't. I shouldn't have agreed to that stupid deal, I should've said no. I should've minded my own business and just ignored him.

If I would've said no we wouldn't have gotten close. We wouldn't have gotten so intimate and I wouldn't have fallen for him. I'll start school in the spring back in Arizona with my mom.

It sucks to leave my dad but maybe in a few months when things are okay I'll come back. But right now I was just too hurt and lost to be here. I told my dad that and he understood and promised to go and visit me more.

He bought me my plane ticket and took me first thing this morning. We got here and he stood waiting with me till my plane was called.

"Are you sure you want to go?" My dad asked.

I looked up at him and nodded, "Yeah I miss mom and well I guess California wasn't for me. Sorry dad."

"You know I could always talk to him, you know warm him to stay away that way you don't have to leave." My dad suggested which made me laugh.

I shook my head, "No dad we don't need him mysteriously missing. He has fans, people who care an awful lot about him and he makes a difference in their lives. But thanks."

"I wasn't going to do that I was jut going to scare him." He joked.

I smiled for the first time in the past two days, "You know what I'm going to miss?"

He looked down at me, "No what?"

"Our Friday lunches, oh and my uncles." I say and he smiled.

"How about we still have Friday lunches but with FaceTime or something? Just so I don't miss out on your life anymore." He suggests.

I nod my head, "I'd really like that dad."

"Flight 608 ready to board." The intercom said.

I sighed as I heard my flight number get called, "Guess this is farewell for now kiddo." My dad said.

"But you'll visit right?" I asked suddenly feeling sad again.

He chuckled, "Of course."

He pulled me in for a hug. I hugged him tightly and felt tears prick the back of my eyes. He pulled back a little to kiss my forehead.

"Have a safe flight love and text me when you land. I love you Roni." My dad said with a smile but I knew it was painful to see me go once again.

I smiled even though I wanted to cry, "Love you too dad."

I then grab my purse and walked over to give the lady my ticket. She checked it before handing it back to me. I then walked in and to the plane. I got in and found my seat which happened to be by the window.

I sighed and took out my earbuds to listen to music. Soon everyone was seated and we were about to take off. I sighed and looked out the window as we took off and soon were in the air.

Then the buildings, roads, and people of California became small. But my problems and emotions from there were anything but small. Just then my music shuffled to one of his songs.

It was his Madison Square Garden live album. It was the Never Be Alone and Hey There Delilah medley. I was upset but I loved the song so much I couldn't bring myself to change it. To hear his soothing voice and the lyrics made me want to cry. I didn't even notice a tear slip down my face.

I quickly whipped my eyes and closed them to get some sleep. I dreamt of him, I dreamt of everything being different. We were still together and we made it official and it wasn't a deal anymore but something more.

Then I was woken up by the flight attendant, "Mam we're here."

"Okay thank you." I say before making sure I had all my stuff and getting out of my seat.

I got off the plane and walked to the airport. I texted my dad letting me know I arrived safely. I went to baggage claim and waited for my bags after texting my mom letting her know I was here.

I seen my bags and grabbed them before walking to find my mom. I looked at the big crowd of people who were waiting for their loved ones. I stood on my tippy toes and looked for my mom.

I then seen her and she had a big poster with my name and candy taped to it. I laughed as I seen her big smile and her waving. I walked over and once I was close to her I hugged her.

I was so overwhelmed with different emotions. Happiness, relief, sadness, and heartbreak. I was happy to be with my mom, relieved to have made it safe, sad because of the circumstances I had to come back, and heartbroken because my mom knew who he was and how much I loved him.

I told my mom everything, not about the deal or how he was at first. But when I knew I loved him I told her I met a guy that I was crazy about. The way he made me feel safe and was caring and all the things I at least thought he was. And she loved him because he made me happy and she hadn't even met him.

She hugged me tightly and I felt a knot form in my throat, "Hi mom." I croaked.

"Hi baby, shh it's okay." She said sweetly and rubbed my back.

That's when all my tears came out. I didn't care that I was in the airport or that tons of people were around me. I only had my mom with me and that's all it took for me to break. Tears ran down my cheeks and my chest hurt and I held my mom so tightly.

"It's okay Roni, everything will be okay. I promise." My mom told me.

We pulled away and she helped wiped my tears away. I calmed down and tried to stop my crying and calm my breathing.

"Let's go home and I'll make you your favorite food and we'll bake okay? Then you can if you want tell me everything okay?" She asked me.

I nodded my head, "Yeah I'd like that." I sniffled.

"Okay let's go home." She said.

We grabbed my stuff and walked out of the airport and to her car. We got in and she drove us home. But the thing was is it wasn't my home anymore. My parents homes weren't mine, he was and that's what was worse.

Because he was my home.

Authors Note//
So Veronica went back to AZ with her mom :( not going to lie I almost cried writing this.
Let me know what you think also holy crap this book is about to hit 50k!
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