Bully Me. Love Me.

Chapter 21

"...and i was thinking bout leaving again, it all depends are we just friends?" -anobrain
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Josh POV

It's the weekend! Jen and I decided not to really go on a date, and just have a lazy day at my house. So here we are, laying on my couch with my arms wrapped around Jen, and her head on my chest.

I stroke her hair, while we watch TV, in my living room. The weather hasn't been nice since Jen got her wisdom teeth out, it's still raining.

"So, Jen do you want something to eat?" I ask, breaking the silence.

"No, it's okay" she sighs, "Do you want to eat?"

"No, it's okay" I reply, there is something on her mind. I can tell, she is not herself.

"Baby?" I ask

"Mhmm?" She hums back.

"What's on your mind, sweetheart?" I keep stroking her arms, trying to get her to relax.

"Nothing" she replies, simply.

"It's something" I urge, curiously.

"Do you ever worry about your image getting ruined in school? Because of me?" she questions, getting off my chest and hovering over me.

"What? Where is this coming from?" I ask, shocked.

"I don't know" she shrugs, and sits up properly. I sit up next to her.

"I don't worry about my image" I tell her, "I care about you sweetheart"

"I know...but what if you do?" she adds, seriously, where is this coming from?

"It will not happen" I shake my head, "What's got you worried about this?"

"I don't know, it's just..." she trails off, "I am of no value in school, and if we ever break up, I will start getting bullied again"

"Jen-" She cuts me off.

"Your image will also be affected because you dated the dork, I don't want that to happen to you"

"It will not, we won't ever break up" I tell her, "I love you, you know that honey"

"I know" she nods, "And I love you too"

"Then why are you saying all this?" I question

"I don't want to go back to us hating each other again, Josh. I don't think I will be able to handle it..." Jennifer replies, I can sense that she wants to cry.

"Handle it?" I ask, raising my voice a little bit.

"Yeah" she nods, "Josh, don't you care deep down that your reputation will be ruined? Just so you can hang out with me?"

"I don't care about my reputation" I half yell, getting pissed.

"Josh...I don't know how a relationship works, you are my first everything" she pleads, "I know maybe that won't last for long, you will probably get tired of me"

"What?" I exclaim, really confused.

"Josh, I just want you to please just think about our relationship. Do you really want to get teased by your friends for dating me?" she questions, tears in her eyes.