Bully Me. Love Me.

Chapter 27

"and i'm petrified of being alone now. it's pathetic, i know" -if i believe you
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Jen POV

I'm walking to Josh's house right now, we decided to have a very chill day since it's the weekend. Josh asked me to go to a party with him tomorrow, a party that I wouldn't go to normally. I decided to this time, because Josh sacrificed so much for me, I think I should step out of my comfort zone too.

I get to his house and am greeted by Michelle, I smile.

"Hello" Michelle smiles, I return it.

"Hi, Michelle. Is Josh home?" I ask.

"Yeah honey, he's right upstairs" Michelle replies, and I walk in.

"Thanks" I smile, and make my way upstairs.

Once I get outside Josh's room I hear voices coming from inside.

"Josh, seriously have you seen who you're dating?" Says a voice.

"Yes, and I love her. I don't care if you don't like her" I hear Josh say.

"Josh, what the fuck is wrong with you? Have you seen the way she dresses?" I hear a female voice say. Jena.

"I don't care about the way she dresses, she's beautiful the way she is. I invited her to the party tomorrow." Josh replies, I smile.

"Josh she dresses like a little girl, I mean has she ever worn a hot dress?" Jena asks, why is she so interested in my fashion sense?

"Yes, she has, on New Year's" I hear Josh say smugly, "I told you anyway I don't care. I love her and if you have a problem, deal with it"

I start getting really insecure, even though Josh is defending me. I promised myself I would step out of my comfort zone for him, and that's what i'm going to do.

I rush back downstairs, without even talking to Josh and I go back home. I climb upstairs to my room, and walk in my closet. I start looking though all the dresses I have, until I finally find one that Josh might actually like. It has cut outs in the back, and ends mid thigh. It certainly not something I would like to wear at a party. I pair it with some gold heels, and think about my makeup tomorrow.

I get a text from Josh, "Hey, mom said that you came over? Where are you?"

"Sorry, I remembered I had something to help my mom with. I'll see you soon. Love you." I reply.

"Okay, I'll see ya. Love you too." Josh sends, and that's where our conversation ends.

I am not comfortable with revealing so much of my body in front of drunk teenagers tomorrow, but I have to do this for Josh.

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I told Josh that I will be driving myself to the party, because I wanted to surprise him at the party with my outfit. He said that one of his friends will be giving him a ride so he's going to meet me there.

I wear my dress, heels, and put on my makeup. My lipstick is particularly dark, because as YouTube says that's "sexy and hot". Once I am happy with the way I look, I walk downstairs and make my way to the driveway where my car is. I took my glasses with me just in case, but I have my contacts in.

I drive to the destination, and take a few seconds to myself in the car before going in.

"You can do this Jen" I whisper to myself. "Think of Josh, you're doing this for Josh"