Love Falls Forever

one month

What? no She can't be leaving me...

She Applied without telling me... why?

Was she planning on telling me?

I stare at the letter and consider ripping it to shreds, but I know she would be pissed. I'm frozen in place thinking of her leaving, when I hear the front door open... I glance at the clock, five... I fold the paper back up and slip it inside it's envelope. I quickly slide it in my back pocket and pull my shirt over it. I shut the drawer just as the door opens. 

"Hey I'm back!" Sky announces, I look over to her seeing Rydel behind her. 

"hey." I mumble. 

"want me to help put all this away?" Delly asks Skylar, she nods and they begin walking around putting her stuff away. I stand there leaned against the dresser watching them, mostly Sky. All I can think about is her not being here, with me... 

"alright well I'll see you guys later. Okay?" I nod and watch Delly hug Skylar goodbye then leave.

Skylar turns to me and kisses my lips, I don't kiss back.

"what's wrong?" she asks me. I shake my head and bite my lip. I honestly feel sick to my stomach, I feel like tears are going to come pouring out of my eyes. I'm angry, upset, and afraid... "Ross..." her voice was quiet as she lifted her hand to my cheek and wiped a single tear away.

"why didn't you tell me?" I gulped. 

"what are you talking about?" She dropped her hand and looked into my eyes.

"Dammit Skylar!' I shouted as I pulled away from her and took a couple steps away. 'Why didn't you tell me about this!?" I yelled pulling the envelope from my pocket. Her eyes went wide as she looked at it.

"Ross..." She mumbled, I closed my eyes to calm myself before speaking. 

"Why didn't you tell me you were leaving?" I was close to exploding on her, scream at her, beg her not to go, At this point I didn't know what I wanted to do.

"I was going to." I looked up meeting my eyes to hers. "I was afraid too... but I was going to, please don't be mad." She said as she made her way over to me again. 

"how can I not be mad!?" I shouted and walked over to the table, I threw the sinister envelope at the ground.

"please Ross. Listen to me, I've always wanted to get into this school. I finally did, they Accepted me. I hid the envelope so you wouldn't find it and be like this. I wanted to explain myself before you had the chance to get pissed." she softly said, this was frustrating me even more. 

I looked over to her, her eyes brimmed with tears as he bit her lip to hold them back.

"God Dammit!!" I shouted and slammed my fist against the table making her jump. 

"Ross... please just calm down..." She begged. 

"No! What the hell! You can't leave me! I need you!" I pinched the bridge of my nose "What else are you hiding from me?" I growled and stepped forward. I knew there was more...

"Look at the letter..." She looked down at her hands. I grabbed the envelope off the ground and opened it yet again. I skimmed the page and found what she wanted me to look at. 

"I leave in a month..." she read the words from the page. "that's when I start..."

"I only have a fucking month with you..." I could hear my heart pounding in my ears, my shaky hands tightened into fists again. I was beyond upset. "fuck!" I shouted and dropped the letter to the ground. I ran my fingers through my hair and took deep breaths. I don't care if I'm over reacting to this shit, I'm loosing my girl friend in a month... I won't be able to see her, touch her, kiss her, nothing! 

I needed to calm down... I need to stop this, and just be okay that she's okay and happy... I bit the inside of my cheek as I walked over to her, I raised my hand to rest it on her cheek but she flinched away...

is she- is she afraid of me? oh god no... 

"Skylar...' I said softly and gently touched her cheek. 'I would never hurt you..."

I can't believe this... I made her that afraid of me, to the point she though I was going to hit her... God dammit I'm so fucking stupid!!

Skylar's P.O.V.

"Skylar...' he said softly and gently touched my cheek. 'I would never hurt you..." I know he wouldn't, it's just he was so mad... so upset... 

I swallowed the lump in my throat and looked into his eyes. pain...

"I'm sorry..." He dropped his hand from my face and slowly walked out of the room. I stood there for a moment, not knowing if I should go after him or stay... I peeked down the hall way to see my bedroom door shut, I walked over to it, opened it and slid inside quietly.

The bathroom door was locked, I pressed my ear against it trying to hear if he was saying anything. 

The only thing I heard was... sobs. Ross was crying. I gently tapped the door and leaned against the frame, hopping he would open it.

"Ross... please let me in..." I forced myself to say. I didn't get a reply so I sat on the floor beside the door and rested my head against the wall. Every sob that came from the other side killed me in a way. I pulled my knees up to my chest and let the tears fall. As much as I wanted Ross to open this door, I didn't want to see his puffy, blood shot eyes. the redness in his face from crying this much. I know if I did, I would break down crying as well. 

The door slowly opened as Ross stepped out, he didn't see me at first until he looked around. When he turned to me his eyes were blood shot, and his face was red... I bit my lip holding back my tears. 

"baby..." Ross croaked as he knelled in front of me. I didn't want to hear him apologize over and over again, I didn't want him beating himself over something as stupid as this. I reached out wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling him between my legs. He slid his arms around my back and hugged me tighter. 

I buried my face in the crook of his neck and gently kissed it. 

"I'm sorry, so sorry." he mumbled. I pulled back and looked into his eyes then shook my head. 

"Don't be. I knew you wern't going to hit me, you were just so mad, I didn't really know what to think. Don't beat yourself up for this. It's not your fault. Ross I love you!" I told him, The corner of his lips pulled into a small, half smile. 

I pressed my lips to his letting the rest of my tears fall. 

Ross' P.O.V.

When she didn't say anything back I didn't know what else to do. I locked myself in her bathroom knowing I was on the last straw from an emotional break down. It's a stupid reason to cry, but everything that has happened in the last four months has been tearing me apart from the inside out. This just happened to be the end of it. When I heard her voice on the other side of the door, I was honestly afraid to go out there. 

I knew I needed to cool down a bit first, but the only thing I could do was cry... 

When I finally had calmed down a bit I decided to go out, I didn't see Skylar at first till I turned around. 

She was sitting beside the bathroom door with her knees pulled up to her chest. Her eyes were red, as tears continued their way down her face.

"baby..." I croaked as I knelled in front of her. she reached out wrapping her arms around my neck and pulling me between her legs. I slid my arms around her back and hugged her tighter. 

Skylar buried her face in the crook of my neck and gently kissed it. 

"I'm sorry, so sorry." I mumbled into her hair.  she pulled back and looked into my eyes then shook her head. 

"Don't be. I knew you wern't going to hit me, you were just so mad, I didn't really know what to think. Don't beat yourself up for this. It's not your fault. Ross I love you!" she told me, I tried to smile but didn't succeed.

she pressed her lips to mine and as we kissed I could taste her tears...