Love Falls Forever

fear of you... fear of me...

"Skylar!" he yelled past the blood dripping from his mouth. I tried getting away from him, I loved him more than anything but I couldn't be near him. He was dead. I needed to get away, it's not possible for someone to be alive while dead. "Skylar!" He screamed again, I pushed him away from me and began running again. "Skylar! wake up!" Ross' voice echoed through the trees. 

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I jumped awake. My eyes shot open finding Ross over me with his hands wrapped around my arms. I screamed and jumped away from him. I heard other gasps aside from Ross' as my back hit the wall. I turned my head to across the room finding Ross' family standing there. My cheeks were wet from my tears as my breathing didn't bother to slow. My heart rate was too fast for me to keep count. I looked back at Ross realizing it was all a dream... a nightmare. His eyes were wide with fear and worry. but deep within them I saw pain... 

"Skylar." He mumbled fearfully. it was the same voice in my nightmare, but it was alive. Ross was alive. 

"Ross." I sighed in relief and closed my eyes taking deep breaths to calm myself. I heard Ross get off the bed and walk closer to me. I opened my eyes seeing him knell down beside me and hold out his hand as if he were to touch me. He looked from his hand to my face and pulled it back, I know now what he was afraid of. He was afraid of me being afraid of him... I looked at the door way then back to Ross' calming face.

"S-skylar." Ross stuttered and looked into my eyes. From the corner of mine I could see his hand twitch. 

"it's okay Ross." I muttered while taking his hand in mine. He sighed in relief and moved closer to me. 

"w-what happened? are you alright?" I nodded unsure weather to answer it verbally. He would be confused and upset if I told him, he doesn't need to worry about any of this right now. He has to focus on the tour. "you were screaming... you screamed my name... it sounded like you were afraid of me... are you afraid of me? why did you jump away from me?" his brows pulled together as his hand ran threw his hair. Ross had so many questions that I didn't want to answer. Of course I wasn't afraid of him, I could never be. 

"no... no Ross I'm not afraid of you. I just had a nightmare... a very realistic nightmare... don't worry about it, I'm fine." I secretly promised him. He bit his lip and looked up into my eyes, he was worried I could tell. but behind the worry I saw the pain... thoughts, questions and what ifs scattered around in my head. Why was he in pain? is it because of me? is he hiding it from me? why would he?

"tell me." his voice was barely audible. "plea-se" his voice cracked. I couldn't understand why he was in pain... or why he seemed so upset... I reached my hand up wrapping it around his neck and gently pulling down so his face came closer to mine. 

"Ross what's wrong? Why are you so upset?" I asked him. He looked away from my eyes and to the door. "hey look at me." I said tilting his chin up. 

"you... you're afraid me... I can see it in your eyes." he shut his and let out a cut off breath. 

"babe I'm not afraid of you." I told him, he shook his head obviously not believing me. 

"When you were screaming... you sounded so scared. When your eyes opened the frightened look... the terror in your eyes when you saw me... or when you screamed and jumped away... you still look afraid... wh-what happened? why are you scared of me?" he sounded as if he could cry any minute now... 

 "Ross listen to me... I'm not afraid of you. I was just scared at that moment... not because of you. I'm fine babe, really I Love you more than anything. Why would I be afraid of you?" I told him, he shook his head again and straitened his back. He looked me directly in the eyes and spoke softly.

"please... tell me... what happened in you're nightmare?" he wondered.

"nothing Ross. Don't worry about it." I sighed and stood up. He looked up at me sadly from the ground. "come on babe. let's go back to bed." I murmured and reached out my hand. He took it and stood up wrapping his arms around my waist and burying his face into my neck. 

"please" He whispered.

"no... I'll tell you later alright." he nodded into my hair and gently laid a single kiss on my neck. When he pulled back so I could see his face he cupped mine in his hands caressing my cheek with his thumb. 

"I love you" he told me. 

"I love you" I smiled and leaned in. He pressed his lips on mine keeping his hands cupped around my face. Without another word we both crawled into bed and snuggled against each other. I wrapped my arm around his waist and gently began rubbing up and down, I looked up at him as he looked down at me. He quickly pressed his soft lips to my forehead and gave me a small smile. 

"goodnight baby girl. I love you" 

"goodnight, I love you too" I said. After about ten minutes of laying against his chest, I finally fell asleep to the beat of his heart.

 Ross' P.O.V.

I wanted to know why she was so scared of me... why she screamed and jumped away from me when she woke up... what did I do to her in that nightmare? who was I?

"Ross!" I awoke from Skylar screaming my name. I quickly jumped up finding her still in bed thrashing around as if someone was trying to hurt her. "Ross no!" She screamed again, she sounded as if she was afraid of me... Before I could react she let out a screech and my family came rushing in.

"what's going on?" My mother looked worriedly at Skylar.

"I don't know." I mumbled and held her down to the bed to stop her from falling off or hurting herself. 

"Ross no! Go away!" she shouted, I knew she was talking in her sleep and I wish I knew what was going on inside of her head right now. 

"Skylar!" I yelled and gently shook her, she needed to wake up now... I needed to end that dream... "Skylar!" She tossed and almost punched me in the face. 

"no." she cried.

"Skylar wake up!" I shook her harder, her eyes jolted open wide and looked directly into mine. Fear spread through them just before she screamed and pushed her way past me then collapsed on the ground. I was confused, frightened, and worried about her... but I never expected to feel pain when this happened. Her back was now against the wall, her breathing was heavy and her eyes still wide in fear, her cheeks dripped with tears. She looked at my family in the door way as they began to quickly leave knowing we needed time alone. After the door had shut I closed my eyes taking a deep breath then reopening and looking back at the still frightened but a bit calmer Skylar. 

"Skylar." I mumbled fearfully. I was afraid to go near her, what if she didn't want me near her... 

"Ross." she sighed in what seemed like relief and closed her eyes taking deep breaths to calm herself. I got up off the bed and walk closer to her hoping she wouldn't run away. she opened her eyes as I knelled down beside her and held out my hand I needed to touch her, to see if she was afraid. I couldn't bare my love being afraid of me... I looked from my hand to her face and pulled it back I was afraid of her being afraid of me...  she looked at the door way then back to my face. 

"S-skylar." I stuttered and looked into her eyes. Her eyes stayed locked on mine and I was glad for that, but my hands still twitched with nerves and fear. 

"it's okay Ross." Skylar muttered while taking my twitching hand into hers. I sighed in relief and moved closer to her. 

I awoke once again, this time to quietness and sunshine. The scene that only happened hours ago played through my head just as it did my dream. I rolled over with my eyes still shut and felt the space beside me. It was empty.